# Scared of relapsing **URL:** https://talkingsober.com/t/scared-of-relapsing/177312 **Category:** Relapses **Tags:** advice **Created:** [January 12, 2024, 4:28pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/scared-of-relapsing/177312 "2024-01-12T16:28:20Z") **Posts on this page:** 1 **Showing post:** 1
### Author: ![Lexx](https://talkingsober.com/letter_avatar_proxy/v4/letter/l/df705f/32.png) [@Lexx](https://talkingsober.com/u/Lexx) #### Post date: [January 12, 2024, 4:28pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/scared-of-relapsing/177312/1 "2024-01-12T16:28:20Z")
Day 2 of no drinking. And I already have been thinking about a drink since I woke up this morning. I am 29 and due to drinking I have pancreatitis, and a fatty liver which put me in the hospital for almost a month I had jaundice because my liver was failing. I have been hospitalized so many times I lost count because of my drinking. I lost custody of my two sons, without them I lost my purpose with life. I can have them back if I could just get sober. I have been arrested due to doing extremely stupid things in a blackout. I lost my amazing job and my brand new car. So I sit on the bed and drink all day. I want to stop and get my life back together but I have no motivation and can’t stop drinking. I don’t understand how I can even be sitting here right now thinking about a drink I hate what alcohol has done to my life but it’s so hard to give it up. --- _[View the full topic](https://talkingsober.com/t/scared-of-relapsing/177312)._