Sounds like my story. 38. Been drinking heavily for 10+ years. My kids have seen me stumble/ fall in to the wall. My 12 year old has seen it all. Going to be kinda hard to tell her how dangerous alcohol is but hopefully she’s seen it first hand and will not do as I did. Gonna go at this as hard as I can cause there really is no other option. I don’t know why I do what I do. I have it all. Own my business that successful. Have the most gorgeous wife. Awesome kids. Don’t know why I sabotage myself. I let the demons get the best of me.