I drank. I didn’t go crazy. But I drank. I guess for non alcoholics this would have been a rough week. For me it was “sensible.”
I been back at work for 8 days now. So far, it’s actually been okay. There have been positive things as a matter of fact. But going back terrified me so I drank. I drank to deal with it. And now I’m back and I’ve realized, I don’t know how to be sober after work. See I had months of success during a shelter in place order. Now I’m back at work, what do I do? How do I rewire my mind to a place where drinking doesn’t cap the day?
I hate myself for drinking. I also bolted from this site, you guys because idk, I felt like a loser. I’m embarrassed. But I’m back cause, idk. Because. Anyway that’s where I am.