I know my parents don’t really understand my personal issues that well and don’t know about my addiction, but they are ‘secretly’ helping me.
Having a separate medicine cabinet that’s locked with a key. That’s a good thing, I won’t have an urge to go through the cabinet, where this mess all started. Back then they didn’t have a locked cabinet.
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Are you absolutely sure you can’t talk to your parents? How about other family, friends or teachers?
It’s awful that you’re tackling something like this at your age with virtually no help.
I don’t know if it’s of any help to you but I found out my Dad was dying when I was quite young, there was no real ‘help’ at all in those days so I was given a never-ending supply of Valium with little or no explanation.
I walked around feeling like a zombie for around 3 years and one day just thought I couldn’t carry on like that and stopped.
Because there was no counselling or anyone to talk to I didn’t know about withdrawal, and, weirdly, after about a month I was fine, never touched it again.
I hope you can get some help because they were desperate times for me and I wouldn’t want any young person going through similar crap.
The one good thing is there are lots of really good people on this forum, who will be right there for you.
Aim for one month, post every day (someone will be here), you can do it!
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@Charlesfreck when I used to self harm, they threatened me that they’ll kick me out of the house if I dont stop. I could ask teachers, but they’ll always end up telling my parents too early. I do have at least one friend to help me with this, but not in person though.
It’s strange you mention the self harm as well. I did that around the same time as I started on the Valium. It went on for about a year. There were about 3 or 4 of us in the year at school. I can’t remember what the blades were, it was arms.
It all made sense at the time, as I’m sure it did to you when you were doing it.
It’s a great pity that your parents looked at what you were doing and didn’t want to help.
Just try to get the days in. You need to be able to think straight.
With me and the booze it took two weeks before I could honestly say I was thinking rationally!
All the very best to you - stay strong.
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Hey, hope you managed another clean day ghost.
I’ve been doing quotes for work and have to be working in a few hours so going to get some sleep!
All the best.