Part of recovery is moving towards the future and not dwelling in the past. I’m having issues with this seeing as everyday I go to work I see my past. I found a beautiful woman at my work and dated her for about three months. I was able to keep my addiction secret for about two of those months and then it finally came out for her to see. I became insecure, emotional, and crazy. We broke up and I was so pathetic in my way of trying to get her back. I was told I was a rebound even though I stole her from her ex who she’s going back to. I am 5 days sober from booz and 12 from green after a two year stint (total of 10 year addiction with about 2 years of random sobriety here and there) I’m 27 and just can’t get out of my past. Every time I see her I just remember how fucked up I am/was and can’t think of a life without her. It’s been about a month and a half since we split. They say time heals all wounds but it’s hard to heal when there’s still a knife in it. I’m smoking my last cig as I type this cause I’m tired of my crutches. I’m hoping you guys might have some wisdom to help me find some clarity. Similar stories are welcome as well.
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