I’ve always found myself able to walk a sober path when I decide to. Usually after 3 months or so I justify that’s it’s ok to have one drink to keep the pressure of consistent sobriety at bay. This always leads to more drinking then drugs and the cycle repeats.
This cycle is different. I am committed to myself and my goal of living a life free of the mental constraints that come with substance abuse.
I have to get my wisdom removed. Outside of the normal anxiety around a surgery I’m nervous that somewhere in my mind I’ll enjoy the narcotics… and somewhere else I’ll feel that temptation…
I contemplated resetting my sobriety counter to not feel as if I’m cheating. Holding myself accountable and not being able to hide behind inebriation is a huge focus of mine. Ultimately I know I’m very nervous for a lot of things to come the first week of June. Being proactive about processing my emotions has helped with the up and down battle between living a full life and staying sober.
Does anyone have any thoughts around this? Also, thanks for reading