I appreciate all the love and feedback from everyone…
That being said… my original post is a desperate cry for help. I’m already anxious and skeptical enough as it is.
I did not mean for my post to become a platform for arguments. I receive notifications everytime a reply is made amongst yourselves and its stressing me out.
I did not mean to cause or be a disturbance…
Maybe debate your opinions privately amongst eachother? Please and thank you…
I appreciate all the love and feedback from everyone…
That being said… my original post is a desperate cry for help. I’m already anxious and skeptical enough as it is.
I did not mean for my post to become a platform for arguments. I receive notifications everytime a reply is made amongst yourselves and its stressing me out.
I did not mean to cause or be a disturbance…
Maybe debate your opinions privately amongst eachother? Please and thank you…
I just tried to help and got attacked. But you’re right, i shouldn’t feed the troll.
I’m sorry for you.
All the best with your recovery, whatever way you choose.
For me I had to be willing to do the things I didn’t want to do to get sober. That meant going to rehab (I was very much against that idea). Going to AA (I wasn’t really big on committing). Sober living (How could I work???)
Unfortunately the willingness did not come easy. I had to lose jobs, housing, money, connections with friends and family, etc.
Basically I had to lose everything before I was willing to put in the work to get sober.
Hey Joe!
We’re all here for the same reason. Trust me… I think about all the stupid shit I’ve done/ said when I was drunk and that’s what mostly is helping me stay sober. Today is day 18 for me. The first week is the hardest. I had alot of triggers and still do. But when I get the urge I think of that me and how I never want to go back. The past is the past. The more I keep going the more I am feeling better about myself and I have noticed the more other people have been feeling better about me also. Take it day by day. You got this. Message me if you need someone to talk to.
Hey Jose, how’s today going? 🙋
First off, you are not a loser. Get that shit out of your head.
You are supporting a family, at least for now, and that’s awesome. Fuck what society tells you you should be, and whatever ideal it holds up of how someone should live.
Being a firefighter is something your kids could be proud of their dad for doing. What about being a drunk? Anyone can be a drunk. Not anyone can be a firefighter.
Be your best self, stop beating up on the sauce. See where that takes you. Glad you are here, there is a lot of support. Take that first step to putting the bottle down and you’ll at least have a chance to move your life in the direction you want to go.
Todays ok… at work on a 24 hr shift…
Congrats on 5 days. I just hit 90 for the first time in over a decade since I was a teenager. Bro, first off stop calling yourself a loser. YOURE NOT. That’s the alcohol disease thing. You are a man. You are a father. You are a good guy who has probly made decisions and reacted out of feelings because of alcohol. Stop saying you’re a loser.
Man your a firefighter, you guys are heros for many, whos gonna rush in to fight the flames, not many would. The alcohol in the mix will drive any man insane dont let it control you and drive down your esteem im sure your a stand up guy, a great father dont let the drink tell you your someone your not. Thats all it ever did for me made me feel worthless and helpless, im building myself back up just a day at a time and i dont feel like im that hopeless drunk/addict that i use to be. God bless you, i wish you well in your recovery.
STATUS UPDATE:
Still sick and tired of being a loser… BUT… I got
30 DAYS SOBER TODAY!!! 
Congrats on your 30 days of sobriety Jose.
Good job man!! Keep doing the next right thing. Things will get better.
Great work Jose! Keep it up one day at a time.
You’re a good person Jose. You deserve a safe, sober life where you can be your full self. 
I somehow missed this when you first posted it, that is awesome!! Congrats on 1 month!
That’s awesome! Congrats!
Right on brother, keep I up!
When I first got into recovery I was 27 years old. By that stage I had already lost everything while my peers’ careers were taking off. I felt hopeless. I felt like a complete loser. I hadn’t yet realized that I had been given the gift of desperation. I got sober anyway and came to realize that I first had to remove alcohol before I could fix the problem. Then I had to start living a spiritual life, look at my behaviour, look at my character defects, correct my wrongs and help others to do the same. One day I looked back at the tsunami that used to be my life and realized that I am a winner. Every day we stay sober, we win. You’ve just won 30 times in a row. But we cannot do it alone. I wish you strength on your spiritual journey, Joe.
Hey how’s it going Joe? I’m on day 10 and i never thought i could do it again! I felt like my first thirty was such an accomplishment, but when i relapsed it felt almost ten times harder to try again. I really appreciate you establishing boundaries on your forum and sharing your story with us.
Whether we like it or not, the way we support ourselves tends to be the way that we see ourselves. It is hard to separate personal value and net worth. Don’t be hard on yourself for this line of thinking. Acknowledging self judgment is better than trying to ignore it.
You are so much more than where you are right now. Keep going.