I’ve had almost 110 days clean and sober…
I went and messed it all up tonight!! My ex + her husband, he is also my close friend) invited me to join them to celebrate their 2nd wedding anniversary last night. It went downhill from there!! I left feeling 2 inches tall and I managed to stay strong until today… All her snide comments and remarks and the way she treated me just made me feel lower than I can ever remember feeling. I got a text from her husband earlier apologising for her behaviour but I had already got the bottle and the coke and mid way through both.
I know that this is no excuse, but I really don’t know what to do right now!!
I have a daughter who is scared of me relapsing on alcohol (she doesn’t know I am also an addict)
I’m scared and know she would be better off without me
Firstly…hush yo mouth with all that nonsense…(sorry if thats a little strong)…l know you are a great Dad addict or not…could you be a better Dad sober and clean…absolutely!!!
And l know for sure Daddy’s little girl would be crushed if you left her alone…
Shake it off and get back on the saddle…don’t let your ex…get into your head…focus on you & your daughter
110 days?!..you can do this…
We are all here for you🙋♂️
Cheers mate, but it’s back to -24 hours.
I wasn’t implying that I was going to harm myself, but rather just give ul and give in to the social workers who have been on my back since she was born!!! I was clean until my daughter was 3/4 years old, but I feel like I’m not able to care for her the way a father should do!!
I’m coked and or drunk 4/5 days and nights a week while she’s in my care…
I’ve been to rehab, and relapsed hours after my release, so maybe for the time being she might be better off with people who are clean and sober and can take care of her properly…
I just want her to have the best childhood, and so far it’s failing miserably
Do you think that’s what your daughter would want? What was the last fun thing/activity you and your daughter partook?
I’m sure she loves you immensely and just wants her sober Dad back…and its selfish of you not being there 100%《《tough love》》
I don’t know your specific situation but I have sons (who I rarely get to see) that I desperately want to be sober for. I had almost 4 months and relapsed 3 times in a month because I was afraid of being back in reality. Ive never needed anyone to degrade me to feel low I just do that to myself. HOWEVER…what I have begun to learn is that I don’t need anyone’s validation to keep me sober. And no, its not easy to deny or ignore harmful words when u first start building up your life. I took it to God and it seemed odd at first. But I was just willing to let Him run the show and not me, not some other person, not even my love for my boys. Ive already seen changes. I hope that u r able to find strength in your Higher Power today.
You had 110 days! That’s huge. You have made changes, but you let someone else’s opinions determine your self worth and caved. Don’t take on her shitty views. Her opinions likely had nothing to do with you anyway honestly, there is usually a lot more going on behind the scenes for them when others treat you badly. You CAN be the dad your daughter needs, you just had over 3 months sober. What can you learn from this and do differently this next time? Get right back on the wagon, do something different and start healing you for yourself as much as your daughter. But in order to heal, you need to do whatever it takes to stay sober because the wounds can’t be drank or snorted away, it just makes it worse. Good luck my friend, you can do this!
As substance abusers, we all need to do anything we can to protect our sobriety. That means that we should not put ourselves in tough situations that may make us fall prey to our DOC. For many of us that means no bars, no going out with former drinking buddies etc. until we know we are strong and can resist temptation. Going out with an angry ex to celebrate her anniversary to her new partner sounds horrible to me, and I can understand why you felt awful afterwards. You’ve learned a very important lesson here, so use it and carry on with head held high. And avoid those situations in the future. Best wishes to you.
