4/14/25 Day 0 (again ) Abstaining from Eating Disorder Behaviors and Recommitment to my Loving GOD
Dear Higher Loving Source,
I asked that you grant 4/14/25 as my recommitment date to myself and to YouâŚto Us. That I abstain from my eating disorder behaviors. I have only been able to abstain from my eating disorders for 1 day. Please help me to rely on You and not my vices. That I seek You instead of a worldly quick fixes, which for me is watching a show or focusing on calories and diet and excessive excercise. Help me find balance in it all. Help me study The Word and the EDA 12 step program. Help me with my life long battle of isolation. Help me to make connections with others on the same journey to wholeness, wellness, and doing good in the world. Help me to express gratitude. Please continue to heal my body, especially my knees and nerves, my mind, and spirit. Help me to see myself as you see me. Remove the scars and damage of past traumas. Bless me with inner and outward beauty. Help me in my presentation of myself in this physical and spiritual world. Help me to be loving and strong in and with You. Amen
Sorry to hear about your struggle it is hard facing this challenge every day. Your prayer is beautiful and heartfelt and I know God is there with you. Keep in touch here and donât isolate.
Have you checked out some of the eating disorders threads here? This is one, and if you search âeating disorderâ there are others:
Thank you for a day in recovery. Yesterday went very well. I thank you for slowing the time down so I could have a deep and sincere prayer with You. I am hopeful that You heard me, it has been many many hard years and I am ready to be completely healed by you and my life to be filled with Your Joy & Blessings, Love and Friendships. Thank you for giving me the courage to share in last night EDA meeting. The subject was about a relationship with your Higher Power and I spoke unashamed about my broken relationship with You and how I am trying to open myself back up to both, but afraid. I hope people were encouraged. Thank you for giving me the courage to take it easy at the gym, please help me with my fear of gaining weight. Please continue to cover me at the Gym, keep me hidden, from peopleâs comments about my body, keep Ace, the Yoga instructor, from touching my body in classâŚI hope he is reading the energy I am sending him to kindly leave me be. Lastly, please forgive me for reacting to the man who abruptly pulled in front of me in traffic, broke fast, only to go right back in the other lane. I was so angry and then cut him off and slammed on my breaks. Help me to focus on the fact that you saved me from his reckless driving rather than my âeye for and eyeâ reaction. Please continue to heal my knees, nerves, mind, body, and and spirit. My knee felt much much better. Please keep healing it. Please keep me on my Study routine. Please make it clear if I should read Samuel or Job. Please shield me from my eating disorder behaviors and remind me to start saying grace before I eatâŚitâs so important. Lastly, Please love me loudly God, I need to hear and feel you again and always.
Amen
Thank You, Higher Loving Source for another day of abstaining from my eating disorders. I felt the urge to act out late last evening, but I kept myself busy. Thank You for Your grace.
Please give me the courage this morning to ask the Yoga Instructor (Ace) to stop touching me in class, even more courage to ask that he just not disturb my practice with comments or physical readjustment, just leave me alone. I have been giving him clues but he continuesâŚit doesnât feel right and itâs not the kind of yoga experience I want.
Please have Adam get back to me about the invoice for my car.
Thank you that the men who broke into my car only took 3 pouches that contained hair brush, hair ties, and lip balm. Itâs hard but I know You would want me to pray for them, I want revenge, so I go against my wants and I pray that they are blessed beyond measure.
Please continue to heal and protect my knees, nerves, mind, body and spirit.
Please keep me from allowing these stressors, or the outcome of my discussion with Ace to pull me into my destructive behaviors.
Thank you God, for 4 days of abstaining from my eating disorders and behaviors. I am beyond grateful.
I did not say grace over any of my meals yesterday. This is something I like to implement at every meal. Although food and body are areas I suffer with greatly. I am grateful for your ever ending supply and how Mother Earth nutureâs me.
Please continue to heal and restore my body. I rebuke all diseases, cancer, loss within my body. I hold firm to the belief Youâve given me that I will leave this earth with no broken bones or ever being cut open. I hold steadfast to that knowing.
Thank you for another day to heal and become who You created me to be.
Thank you Higher Loving Source for 4 whole days of abstaining from my eating disorders. Thank for allowing me to do a few things I have been putting off out of fear. Although they did not turn out the way I wanted, You eventually gave me peace that itâs going to be okay. I can now let go and put it in Your hands, so I am doing that. I now release what the car mechanic may have done or may have not done to my vehicle. I release the large expense and the now wobbly ride that wasnât there before the repairs, which he claims he cannot feel. I trust that You will cover my vehicle from bumper to bumper and keep me and other safe in and out of it.
I am grateful that I feel for the 1st time the effects of the Serenity Prayer. Yes God, help me to continue to receive Your serenity and to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.
The repetitive wisdom I felt today was âDo what I can and leave the rest in Your hands.â I am trusting You God.
Thank you Higher Loving Source for 5 whole days of abstaining from my eating disorders. I feel so much better in my mind and body. I keep forgetting to say grace before partaking in my meals. I really want to do that, please put it heavy in my heart and mind to do so. I did not get to study the Word like I wanted or EDA literature. Now that I spent a week in my new schedule I will better be able to manage my study time. Help me please.
Please continue to heal my knees, nerves, body, mind and spirit. I love You, Please allow me to feel You loving me back. It has been so many years since I felt or heard You, but I will still move forward with a mustard seed of faith, that You do.
Please shield me from my mother wickedness and the darkness of other relatives. This âfamilyâ has been the biggest curse of my life.
It has been 6 days since I acted out in eating disorder behaviors. I wish this was a feel-good post, but I am so overly hurt by God. I donât want to be alive and then beat myself up for feeling this way. I am trying my hardest to draw close to God. Iâve been feeling so forgotten by him starting in 2011. I been through so much trauma in my life, survived, did good, gave back, someone who wasnât raised in any understanding of God/ Higher Power. And at the hieght of me serving God. Leaving everything and everyone I knew to serve in state I never lived in before, no family no friends, serving underprivileged kids in Haiti. God fled and the torture the traumas began. Iâve been going through 14 years of progressive torturous hell.
About 3 months ago, I found this prayer app and just started praying for people. Then, I started asking for prayer. It ignited something in me. I then joined a 12-step program for eating disorders. Then, I started praying directly to God every morning. Then, I took my good books out of storage. Then, I started replacing TV shows with positive educational shows. I am trying to straighten up areas in my mind in my heart that have been tainted by so many years of pain. And this morning on Easter, I was sucker punched by ANOTHER hardship. I stopped breaking down and prayed and prayed, I believed, I trusted, I thought for a moment I felt God like I used toâŚonly to be punched again. I feel completely cursed. I feel my prayers fall on deaf ears. If I am cursed, if God chooses to let me suffer alone, how am I to go on. I have lost everything my career, my home, my level of intelligence and abilitues. I have NO FRIENDS, my phone does not ring, i have no one to turn too. I had to return to my hometown, living with an abusive mother I have not lived with since I was a teenager. This is horrific and the hardships donât stop. The only thing keeping me alive are my two cats. I love them more than life itself. Please pray that whatever curse is on me, will be lifted and sent back to hell and never return and that God will find it in His heart, to love me agai . I need You God. PLEASE STOP REJECTING ME, PLEASE STOP LIFE FROM BEATING THE LIGHT OUT OF ME. Save me PLEASE!!!
Here with you @Skylah breathe. Be still. Sit thru the uncomfortable feelings without taking neative action. Going thru some stuff tonight myself. You are not alone. Here with you
) Abstaining from Eating Disorder Behaviors and Recommitment to my Loving GOD
