# So drunk I feel sober. Playing Russian roulette **URL:** https://talkingsober.com/t/so-drunk-i-feel-sober-playing-russian-roulette/181839 **Category:** Your Story **Tags:** alcohol **Created:** [April 26, 2024, 3:50am UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/so-drunk-i-feel-sober-playing-russian-roulette/181839 "2024-04-26T03:50:36Z") **Posts on this page:** 1 **Showing post:** 4
### Author: ![Pandita](https://talkingsober.com/user_avatar/talkingsober.com/pandita/32/247476_2.png) [@Pandita](https://talkingsober.com/u/Pandita) #### Post date: [April 26, 2024, 6:21am UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/so-drunk-i-feel-sober-playing-russian-roulette/181839/4 "2024-04-26T06:21:08Z")
Hey there friend, welcome to this wonderful bunch of people. I think all of us here can relate to what you are describing. I know I’ve been there. I vowed every morning I would not ever go back to the bottle. By 9 pm I was drunk and full of self hatred. I quit 2.5 years ago and have been sober since. I quit, when I realized, that I wanted more than mere existance. I wanted my life back. It sounds like you are at a point, where you finally want someting better for yourself as well. But you got to put in the work. Noone can do it for you. Coming here, looking for support is a really great first step. You don’t have to do it alone. The people here have helped me on my journey to sobriety and been a pillar in my recovery ever since. Taking that first step was the best thing I’ve ever done. Letting people take my hand and help me on the way, was the second best. It’s gonna be worth it. I promise. Here are some threads that might give you a few ideas how to make it happen. Looking forward to seeing you around 🧡 > [@What's YOUR plan?](https://talkingsober.com/t/whats-your-plan/177233): > > If you hang out on Talking Sober long enough, you will undoubtedly see someone, usually one returning from a relapse, being asked, “What’s your plan (to staying sober)?”. While this question may often be rhetorical, it is an important one to answer for yourself. I feel that sobriety has 4 distinct phases that you should plan for. The Pre-quit phase (days/weeks leading up to quitting) The Withdrawal Phase (Day 1 to Day 30) The Post-Withdrawal Phase (Day 30 to Day 90) The Sustain/Recovery Phase… > [@Advice for the Newcomer and Constant Relapser](https://talkingsober.com/t/advice-for-the-newcomer-and-constant-relapser/11064/2): > > One piece of advice that I can give to a fellow alcoholic is to wake up every day and tell yourself you don’t have to drink today. Anything that you plan on doing can be done without drinking. Also, PICK UP YOUR PHONE and call somebody if you are really feeling like drinking (preferably another alcoholic/addict), when I found my gf w another guy a few months back I had to take out every tool I had out of my toolbox wich included calling my sponsor and a member on this forum. I honestly think th… --- _[View the full topic](https://talkingsober.com/t/so-drunk-i-feel-sober-playing-russian-roulette/181839)._