Hey guys so after 221 days sober I let myself become possessed by the demon of alcohol once again. After two weeks of playing with fire I became extremely depressed once realizing how far its claws had dug into my back, working me like a puppet. I decicided enough was enough and attempted suicide by downing an ungodly amount of vodka mixed with mutiple medications then throwing myself in a dumpster (drunk me no plan no good). I was found unconscious by a security guard who called 911. Once in the ambulance I had my very first seizure. I dont know how but I survived this ordeal and after a week in the hospital im good as new besides a limp from throwing myself onto my hip while hopping into the dumpster. 10 days sober today trying to get my life back come on me donāt fuck it up!
thank you for listening, Jesse.
Iām glad you are ok. Alcohol is a nasty demon. You just hit a bump in the road, not a dead end. Just get back on the road and keep pushing forward. We can help each other out. Feel free to hit me up anytime
Iām truley happy that you are okay. Addiction is a scarey thing. But look on the bright side. You made it so far, and I know you can do it again.
Weāve ALL had relapses. The most important thing is what you learn from it. Have you gone to AA meetings? I go to NA and I can honestly say it saved my life.
I wish you the best in your journey to sobriety! You CAN do it!
Thank you I appreciate it more than you know. I wish my relapse didnāt turn into such a major incident but Iām confident I can beat this thing, This is a brautiful life and I have a lot to live forš
Thank you Iām happy too I definitely got lucky and I donāt plan on taking life for granted anymore. I have gone to AA thatās how I got sober the last time and even though I only went every day for maybe a month it changed my outlook on things and I almost made it a year sober.Hearing stories and the different perspectives of people that suffer like me really helped me get out of my own head and stay focused. Iāve scheduled therapy and am going to a cognitive behavior group therapy meeting on monday. sorry for ramblingā:stuck_out_tongue_closed_eyes:Thank you for replying it means a lot.
So glad you survived. Staying sober feels so hard, but I donāt think any of it will ever be as hard as waking up and hearing what happened that night. I woke up with burn marks on my body once, and eventually figured that I did it to myself. Hope you have good support where you are-- and that youāre able to go to meetings. Iāve heard a lot of stories from people in AA with similar experiences, and theyāve managed to get some sober time. It can be done. Nothing is over yet for you. Youāll be in my prayers, which is saying something, because Iām pretty agnostic!
Thank you ashlee Iāll take all the prayers I can get (also agnostic) support for me has seemed to dry up! I get it I guess after a while people no matter how close get sick of the bs. Iām hoping these cbt style counseling sessions help fingers legs and eyes crossed!
I hope youāre doing well to stay above water in this fight for life, I believe in us.
Glad you are still with us and thank you for sharing. I know it must have been horrific for you. I have been in the company of co workers drinking tonight and it was tough at the start but I read this and you have helped me as 165 days in you forget a lot of the crap that alcohol caused and it was a reminder of how disastrous things become. You have helped me today so thank you.
Praying for you, stay strong and embrace whatever help is on offer, we canāt do it alone.
Thank you I agree going in alone was the mistake I made the first time around. Im truly glad I could help I donāt get to feel that way much nowadays. I wish I would have been more mindful of my past with alcohol before I messed everything up but its one foot in front of the other from here on out, moving in the right direction with the right kind of support holding me upš
Donāt let a setback set you back! The good thing is that you had a setback, reprioritized, and came back. Youāll be a lot better for it. Heres a tip if you want it; I wrote down all my āsymptomsā or signs that I was heading for a relapse on a note card. It helps me to see those signs when I have them on my bathroom mirror and refrigerator so I can do somthing preventative to head it off.
Thanks for the tip man I think thatās something that could help me out. I appreciate you responding.