I wanted to take a moment to thank all of you from the bottom of my heart for helping me through last week. I feel like that was one of the hardest 2 weeks I have been through in sooooo long and I dont know how I would have gotten through it with out all of you guys. Im writing this now as tears are pouring down my face with gratitude, love, and thankfulness. Words cannot describe how terrible, lost, alone and disappointed I felt just last week and Im so blessed that every single one of you took time out to comfort and console me. You guys have seen me through my ups and downs and have never judged and for that Iam forever grateful…
Day 4 and I feel soooo much better mentally. The dark cloud on my chest is slowly rising and I feel like Iam beginning to be able to breath again. I was able to take a quick trip to the coast to see my family and got to do some very beautiful meditating and breathing and I cant even describe how much it has helped. You are my angels in my pockets and I want to check in with you all every day to keep my path always in the right direction.
By far the hardest struggle I have ever experienced in my life…
So guys better late than never… Day 4, I feel stronger today, My body has stopped aching and I feel more determined than I have ever felt in a very long time! I will check in tomorrow and every day after…
I’m on 50 something now (that’s a bit telling, maybe the rewiring’s reached a point where the number of days aren’t priority one!)
This app and the great people like yourselves who post have made that 50 something so much easier.
The journey’s a bit rocky but 4 will become 7, 14, 30, 50, and then 50 something!
I’ll hit 2 weeks in a few hours (according to the official tracker thingy). Well done to you and everyone else doing well. I’m feeling wonderful these days, definitely went through some kind of PAWS, which I posted about, around days 7-11. But I feel a new sense of clarity coming, works alot easier and I’ve been working out every other day.
I’ll make 3 weeks today. I had serious cravings all night at work, but I knew if I could make it home without a bottle or beer I would be alright. I’m locking myself inside, and hope tomorrow will be easier. Knowing that I can buy alcohol 24/7 was a perk, and part of the reason I moved here. Now it’s a continuous temptation, one that I am so far not giving in to, and for that, I also want to thank everyone here for your support.
Aw @Shelbyeriss Right back at you! I can’t thank YOU enough for the support you’ve given me too, you have been there at times when I really needed someone.
To all of you actually who have reached out to me so far. Thank you all
@Shelbyeriss you are such a lovely beautiful soul, always there to support others!!
You are a strong person and have got this, just believe in you!! I do!! The world will throw loads of shit at you but you are going to rise above it and come out smiling and at peace with yourself!!
Please please look after yourself and like you said just BREATHE!! Xxx
Awe thanks a ton @NatalieE thats very sweet of you. You always have such kind motivating words for me. Im feeling great today. Again oh so much better than I was last week. But hey DAY 7 !! I could not be prouder after tomorrow I will have come farther than I have in the last 11 years of my life and I could not be more thrilled! All thanks to all of you beautiful souls I own one hundred and fifty percent to the support from all of my friends here. Thank you for everything. Has everything been going well with you @NatalieE and your fiance? I hope all is well for you always. xoxo
@Zara Ill always have your back so please never forget that! If you ever need to vent or are having cravings please reach out to me and we can talk each other through it. We are in this together!
Way to go though @BigRich That is a huge accomplishment and cheers to your 3 weeks!! I just hit 7 days myself so ill be excited when i can say 3 weeks! Give yourself credit its a hard journey. Did you make it past your cravings? It is hard when alcohol is accessible 24/7. My ex used to say how are you ever going to stop when you practically have a drug dealer on every corner of the street?? But hey we are doing it so we need to be proud of that and I definitely give you credit!! If you ever need anything im here for you. We all are. Best of luck to week 4!!!
You will start to feel better and better as the days fly by. You will be free when you don’t count the days as you are too busy enjoying life!!
Fiance is starting to understand, I have to go for an ecg and blood tests to test my liver function so think he is starting to realize the severity of the problem and I may not be fully fixed for sometime.
I really hope that I haven’t been so stupid to destroy the only body I have by drinking. the thought of how ridiculous it is to poison myself and that I have risked my future and dreams is crazy!!
I can never drink again n to finally say that is not scary it’s empowering!! Be strong, healthy and sober xxx
