So Many Feelings

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I think one of the scariest parts of sobriety for me is all of the feelings I now have to confront. Before, if I felt anxious or upset, I could just have a drink, or 10- until I didn’t feel them anymore. I have really high anxiety, and I had to survive my staff Christmas party sober as a jay bird… I realized that part of why I liked to drink at these types of things is that for some reason the alcohol made me more confident, more talkative, etc. I have 2 little boys that are both on the autism spectrum, and I think that another reason I was drinking so much was because I didn’t want to confront the feelings that came with their diagnoses. It was a super unhealthy coping mechanism. I am a far better person without the booze, I’m a better mother, a better wife, a better human being. But the feelings…so many feelings!!!

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@Allicat do you have any outlets for these feelings? When I am overwhelmed I usually either go for a run or I paint or I write. I suppose this place is a good outlet also :grinning:

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The feelings are annoying :unamused:

I guess it makes sense since drinking suppresses your feelings for so long. I used to think I was a pretty strong, reasonably balanced person. Now that I don’t drink there’s moments where the cray comes out and I have to go cry somewhere.

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Thank you for sharing! I have been there and still in my 61 days, I have a lot of feelings I don’t know how To handle sober. This journey is challenging because you have to face so many truths, so many raw emotions, so many nights with just yourself. I feel like I don’t know who I am sometimes and that’s not a bad thing because the old me was a bad version of myself. Anyway, thank you for sharing… it’s so nice to be able to relate to people :slight_smile: stay strong!!

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I think I’m a sensitive person :expressionless: lol when I was drinking I was super tough. 61 days sober and I still have so much to learn and grow.

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I might have to conclude the same. I hardly ever cried before, now I’m weepy af. Lol @ariana2607

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Thanks everyone- I am glad that I am not alone in this journey of feelings overload lol

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@Asprinkle I do a lot of spin and barre classes, but I am also teaching full time and doing my masters degree. It’s insane!! My husband and I go to marriage counselling BI-weekly so I think that I’ll bring it up next session. Thanks for the reminder! :heart:️

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Hi Allicat, I hear you on the feelings!!! I have drunk to surpress every feeling I ever had forever!!! Suddenly now I am sober they are all just so painful its unbearable! My sponsor (AA) tells me once i have done my step 4 and shared it (step 5) i will feel better and I am really hoping she is right because I am just drowning in feelings! Post on here and let it all out :slight_smile:

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