I hope you know that your Mom was incorrect here. You are allowed to feel however you feel when the feeling hits. Holding it in or denying feelings leads to trouble, like alcoholism.
I’m really glad you talked it out with us. Keep talking. Pain is diminished when it’s shared.
Absolutely Emilie, i almost did hold it all in and didnt speak on here but my goodness im pleased i did, youve all helped me more than you can know, thank you 
i hope you are well my friend
I am. I’m creeping up on a year sober and good things keep falling into place. Thanks for sharing with us.
Thats some amazing sober time right there, well done you, so pleased things are falling into place because you so deserve to be happy my friend
On reflection im starting to feel now that i was meant to see that photo… to enable me to move forward…to realise i can find a pathway through something that has haunted me for so long through new sober eyes…