Hi @Breek,
Welcome! Good you came here to vent, we all need a place where we feel understood and find help and company.
Yea, sometimes being buzzed feels like a comfortable shortcut for coping with life. On second thought it leads … nowhere. Not to relief, not to cope with anxiety, not to mend depression.
On the contrary, it leads to brutal hangovers worsening every shit in life, more depression and anxiety and as a bonus you poison your body with a neuro- and cytotoxine which devastes your already struggling body.
Nothing to say about cocaine, I never used it.
Read around, there are good sources to overcome and deal with struggles.