Trying this sobriety thing and trying to put alcohol down….
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I love that your here
Sobriety is my life choice..it sounds overwhelming but at a point I just wanted sobriety more then a substance. This is how I feel 100%
The first thing I did was look at myself and ask is this becoming a problem. When I answered yes, my journey started.
I relapses several times. Like a lot. I lost respect from everyone I knew. Going back and forth pissed a lot of my ex friends off. One minute I’m buying 30 packs for me and them and the next I’m not even picking up their beer which they would bribe me with
My best friend died from heroin
I watched him go from top notch smart athletic kid to low key gang member until he died. His drug of choice was crack. I also dabbled with it all.
This best friend was a ex friend be4 he died..I kicked him out of my place for loitering looking for drugs with other people walking in and out of the place. He was done with me when I was really trying to get sober
When I got sober 1 month after I got a job. The month after I found out my baby boy was on the way. I smoked THC 1 time since then which was a total disaster and also took multiple CBD alternatives secrel times
Now I’m almost 900 days no alcohol and over 400 days no THC CBD or anything weed. I am even over 500 days no form of nicotine
This is the best my life’s ever been
It all started with AA and I go to online meetings sometimes. It helps but I just use this forum most of the time and I don’t pick up no matter what I feel.
If I feel a emotion and I get through that emotion sober, not only did I do so but I learned I don’t need to be under the influence while that emotion is played
I recently learned if I was ever homeless I believe I would stay sober. Id walk to my job and figure it out.
Anyway it all starts with putting down the drink
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That’s deep…. Thank you for sharing. I guess it’s just a matter of sticking to it and with time it should get easier I suppose
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Absolutely it gets easier. And with a bit of trying life gets easier and better
When I first put it down I had withdrawal and cravings for quite a while..I had to message my wife to send me pictures of her and the baby while I was at work to help keep me in the reality of the situation and to.motavate me
This is going to sound a bit overwhelming but at about 1 year the withdrawal was gone.
Here’s the kicker
I might have cravings for the rest of my life..I MIGHT. Some people here actually had cravings vanish. Now that I think about it I think I feel like I have a good chance to get to that point with distance in time.
Anyway
Cravings are just a bad thought now
I have a thought, wow that ciggs looks good but I throw that thought away behind me very easily
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Glad you’re here 
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Welcome to TS. 
This is a great place with so many amazing people. If you’re looking to get sober, you can. One day at a time. Read around and see which threads resonate with you. You got this! 
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I guess I can celebrate a small win, last night I had a practice at my Masonic lodge no big deal usually, one of my brothers showed up who I usually drink with poured him a couple shots and it didn’t even phase me to not have a drink with him or to be around it or watch him drink and me not partake. That’s a 1st for me in this particular environment. I guess I just wanted to brag out loud for a minute.
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That’s a great win. I recommend staying off alcohol involved settings in early sobriety.
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That’s awesome
Don’t pick up no matter what
You won’t know how to do it until you do it
Sobriety is worth it
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Bravo! Welcome to choosing you! 
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I whole heartedly agree with you however due to my position I can’t necessarily avoid all scenarios and situations
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The more interesting thing to me is that, well I could be paranoid or overthinking things per usual but relationships seem as though they are going to start changing very quickly around me
Yes I absolutely understand
Something I need to understand is that a liquir store is down the street and a relaps is a walk to the liquor store away
I lived with drugs around for about 5 years..in that 5 years I went from alcohol to vaping to pot to crack and dabbled with smoking heroin on a opiet blocker (could have killed me) and tried meth one time
Being around drugs almost killed me. Trying to get sober was so bad because my friends would actually get mad at me
The journey in sobriety is colorful
And you don’t need to pick up and that, even if it’s a thought, could save your life
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Sheesh. Well I’m glad you’re still here today. You most definitely have a story to tell. I haven’t experienced that part of the journey yet but I would be surprised if I experienced the part where people around you get mad at you for wanting to better yourself essentially. I’ve lost friends due to the fact that I got married so I can only imagine
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When I got sobered but I could see through people’s bs
And yes I had best friends mad at me and calling me lame andl even getting mad at me for not picking them up their own beer
Addiction can be crazy
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Welllllll I suppose it wasn’t bound to take long for me to slip back into my old ways….
Your back. You must still want to quit.
Glad your here.
Don’t quit quitting.
Most of us do what you did.
Welcome back.
‘Restore us to sanity’ 
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