Currently at 3 days. Most recent attempt lasted 14 days at the run up Christmas. I knew Christmas would be difficult, nigh on impossible, and it proved to be so. Was pretty heavy and non stop. I felt like a disgusting rotten corpse for a few days, for sure. But I’ve made peace with it, and feel confident and happy moving forward.
This has been an ongoing thing for me for about a year now. Longest spell being 24 days sober.
Some relapses have been pretty heavy. I like to visualise them as throwing myself off a cliff, and eventually hitting the rocks below. Battered and bruised, I have to climb the cliff back to the top. The longer I fall, the harder the climb back. I don’t want to do that climb again.
Good luck all, hope you’re all doing well this Friday (the gateway to the weekend, and a difficult time for some, me included).
I’m at 5 days today. Hoping to make it through the weekend. I’m shooting for 10 days which will be on Tuesday. If I can make it from there I will then shoot for maybe another week… baby steps…
What is this problem I am having today just because it’s Friday?!! Yesterday I was resolute, today all day I felt fine and now heading into the evening I am really feeling weak!! Kids are asking for friends to sleepover which I would normally say yes to but when I was drinking my wine the chaos didn’t bother me…I feel like we all have to hunker down for the weekend just for me to make it through…not really fair to anyone else ️
I know the feeling. I have 10 minutes or so left to the work day and have to pick up my kids. The weekends (as well as everyday) I usually drink to calm my anxiety… which in turn, turns up my anxiety from what I’ve learned. Have some sugary foods / drinks. Juice, juice and juice.
I know that feeling. Been okay past few days. Friday’s, everyone in work goes out drinking and I’m normally first at the bar. Imagine four sober Fridays though? Doesn’t sound hard…And that’ll be the month
I like that!! Get today under my belt & then just three more to make it a month and 6 days🤗
Decided I’d heat up some tea instead…after that it’s probably back to the skittles!!!
Sometimes I think it would be helpful for this app to do have another option (or maybe it does and I don’t know about it?): instead of counting how much time has passed since your last drink or high, to also count total days out of a week or month you stay clean (even if you have a hiccup… or 10!) so you don’t feel like a failure for caving in now and then… those 4 or 5 days still happened, resetting makes it feel like back to square 1, or like the sober days didn’t exist. But they did and you can still be proud of that.
@Tomber I love your analogy of throwing yourself off a cliff, thanks for sharing. Friday has always been a trigger for me as well. 22 days for me in 5 min. People tell me it gets easier, some days I feel like that’s true.
Just keep posting guys. It’s been working for me and I’ve never been into sharing my feelings. But it feels good to express yourself, through the good days and bad. I finally understand the importance of support. And we’re all here for the same reasons. WE CAN BEAT THIS, ALL OF US
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