Friday’s are big for me - as I mentioned it’s stopping by the liquor store to buy my case of beer - BUT DIDNT - nice to wake up not hung over - or high sugar, anxiety and out of sorts - quiet here - everyone asleep - typically would watch porn - and look to find partner(s) and get high - and suffer through week of sickness with regret - repeat - rinse - start again - please (if you do) continue to pray for me- I’ve failed before after 3 days, 3 weeks, 3 months, and 3 years, many times for the last 30 years - trying to break these chains - love you guys - keep your head up and I will too
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Congratulations! Keep it up! I’m on day 6! We got this!
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I am praying for you my friend. Good job on 5 days, what are you doing differently this time around? 
That’s an interesting and accountable question so ty - I’m in charge of health and safety (ironic) at my job. And always ask my leadership “Our Safety Numbers were great this year - Tell me why? - and if you can’t - then we are Safe by Accident” to answer your question, I had to pull over to reply… and honestly, I’ve stopped 100s of times in my 30 year binge. But this time, I found it better by talking to someone albeit an app where I don’t know who’s real or who’s not. Cause I couldn’t tell my wife, my kids, family, friends, pastor, Christians - because I’ve been living a lie. Condemnation? Yes! Guilty? Yes! I’ve been brought up to believe that I had to confess my sins to people - and everyone I know know me! But this time, this app allows me to freely express my self and say, “ I messed up - I’ve sinned, please forgive me” and if a bot or someone can say, “it’s ok - me too” then it gives me hope that God really forgives me and maybe my family will too - ty for letting share. Starting my 5th day of sobriety of meth and alcohol
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Well I’m not a robot and I can honestly say to you that you are safe here to talk freely. You are among people here, that know the struggle of addiction and that want to break free. This place is my daily go to where I can get advice or just a listening ear. This place is my main tool in my sobriety. I wish you well and I look forward to hearing more from you. 
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