Hello Everyone Here.
I’m Zoe a binge drinker this is my story about me staying sober.
Before I came into recovery and to AA meetings, I thought there wasn’t any help, and I was just constantly binge drinking alcohol, especially Cider 2L bottles. I was drinking till I blacked out and didn’t have a limit or however to stop drinking, when it was enough.
In November 2024, I remember unwrapping a present I got myself for Christmas. I said to myself I need a drink, so I remembered I got myself a Bottle of Bailey’s the 2L, and I drank all of the alcohol of the bottle, and a few minutes after mental health Crisis/Breakdown came crashing down. All of the traumatic situations I have been through that year with my ex Boyfriend who was an alcoholic and he was absolutely vile as well, and also traumatic situations when I was a kid. When my dad used to be around. My dad was absolutely Vile he wasn’t a father to me, what he did to me. He was an alcoholic himself, he used to drink, loads of bottles of beer every single night till, the last day he took his own little last breathe and he died. He killed himself through alcohol. Then also losing my stepdad to cancer.
After that night in November 2024, my mom asked me why are you drinking, I replied, I just wanna be 6 feet under, and all of the traumatic situations coming back all at once. My mom replied going I can’t lose you as well I already got my husband to cancer. I remember giving my mom a hug, and saying sorry. After that night I knew I needed help. So I got referred to CGL, I remember going there not sure what to expect or how to expect things to plan out. I did have 2 options, the staff at CGL told me, you can go to rehab and detox there or detox at home, so I detoxed at home till I took a dark nasty turn. I came off alcohol for a week and I had the withdrawals kicked in, my GP had to give me medication for the cravings and withdrawals, I nearly died that day.
In March 2025, I remember walking through the doors to AA community, feeling Scared, Nervous and needed help. So I went to AA, I spoke about my drinking and how it affected me the way it did. Then after the first meeting felt all ok. Then went back again a second to the AA meeting, and started feeling more vulnerable and confident while in the AA community, and speaking to others alcoholics, who are learning to live sober from alcohol. Then 4 months into the program I met my sponsor who’s helping me through my sober Journey and also Sobriety.
Then also back in end of May 2025 I relasped with alcohol. I felt absolutely Awful and Annoyed also feeling unpleasant and mentally beating myself about it. The next day I went straight back to meeting and said I relasped and everyone there understood the Speech and reason, about how I was feeling at the time and after relapsing I was 80 days sober.
Then I started again the day after at 1 day sober, and today is Thursday 28 August 2025, I am 82 days sober from alcohol.
I am glad I’m in recovery for alcohol and also speaking to other alcoholics who are also in recovery. And also I’m really glad for the meetings and my Sobriety, and also for my higher Power I have found.
Thank you so much for reading my story about me staying sober.
Thank you
Zoe Dove
Congratulations on ur 82 days sober! Thank u for sharing a bit of ur story. Thays very brave 
