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Day 12
Rehab continues. This is a long update and I understand if you don’t bother to read it 
I woke up at around 12:05 a.m., feeling surprisingly well-rested despite after an active day.
I had been dreaming that I arrived at an AA meeting. The meeting began, but for some reason I started doing the dishes. Suddenly, the television was on, and the meeting carried on while I stood there washing dishes and everyone else sat in the meeting room.
Eventually, I became angry and said, “I didn’t come here to watch television.”
An older AA member suddenly stood up, looking alarmed and said, “No, no, don’t leave. Otherwise you’ll start drinking again.”
I kept washing the dishes until the meeting was over. I never spoke.
This dream felt the most interesting dream this year. I asked AI to analyze the dream and it suggested an Jungian analyse (Carl Jung, swizz psychiatrist). My referate from the analyse:
From a Jungian perspective, your dream can be seen above all as a scene of individuation — the encounter between an old self and an emerging new self.
1. The AA meeting — community and a new direction
2. Washing the dishes — encountering the shadow through ordinary work
The other people are sitting and talking. You are doing physical, ordinary work.
Washing dishes can symbolize something very concrete psychologically: cleansing what is old.
The old life cannot be left behind simply by talking about it — it also has to be cleaned up in concrete, practical ways.
3. The television — passivity and a life merely observed
Television provides ready-made content to watch. You do not have to participate; you can simply receive.
4. Anger — healthy aggression
It can be a force that protects psychological boundaries.
“This is not what I need.”
5. The older AA member — the Wise Old Man
He may represent an older and wiser part of your own psyche, something within you that knows something your conscious mind does not yet fully understand.
His message could be:
“Do not break your connection with this process.”
6. But you do not completely obey him
You remain part of the community, but you participate in your own way.
7. Your silence — perhaps it is not yet time for words
Something is happening, but you may not yet be ready — or willing — to turn it into words for other people.
Instead, you act.
8. You stay until the meeting ends
the meeting ends, and you are still there.
If the dream could be reduced to one Jungian sentence
“Do not leave the connection, but do not abandon your own way of walking this path either.”
And at an even deeper level:
The television represents passive existence. The dishwashing represents cleansing through action. The older AA member represents inner wisdom. The meeting represents new connection. And you are in the middle of all of these, building a new relationship with yourself.
What strikes me most is that your dream does not end with you leaving.
It ends with you staying.
——— Dreams are just dreams but this one was so special and I wanted to show what AI can do. Ofc you need to use AI with critic and this was partly entertainment. Thanks if you bothered to read this
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I used to live in the Santa Clause capital for a number of years before relocating to Eastern Finland. How wonderful that you created a thread of your own. Whatever direction you decide to take it, I hope it serves you well. Mine doesn’t get much traffic but it’s not about that - I’m writing for me.
I’ve also shortly studied and worked in the city of Santa Claus. I appriciate your attitude on journaling. I also think that it helps organizing my mind or something like that. I’m going to follow your thread. Thank you for support
