The other day I was with my girlfriend. We haven’t been long together.
She knows that I have depression and alcohol issues. We had a discussion for a while that night and I decided to drink. I got drunk a lot. I became very sensitive and aggressive. It was a terrible night for both of us. Now she says she does not know what to do, that she doesn’t know the way she loves me. She says that together we are hurting each other, and that she thinks that the whole subject of my addiction and mental problems are too intense and too much for her. On the one hand I understand her, because sometimes for me it’s also very tired to be with myself and carry on, but on the other hand I think that if you love someone you do it with the good and the bad stuff, and you try to help them to get better. I’m sad and depressed. I don’t know what to do, I don’t want her to leave me and I want to help her to understand what’s going on in my life right now. I just don’t know if that is the right thing to do.
Any advice or emotional support or both? 
Last weekend 7 days and a little over 8 hours ago I started over again. I’ve stopped before but always went back. Last Sunday morning I ended up, drunk, in jail, again, because, because I was drunk, and my girlfriend and I got into a fight. So here I go again and the story repeats itself.
She has told me the same thing. When I met you I didn’t know you were an alcoholic. I don’t know if I can be with someone that is an alcoholic. I don’t want to be with you anymore. So I begged her for one more chance. Just one more. I told her if I fucked up again she won’t have to leave because I would pack myself. So now I have that chance and I’ll be damned if I’m gonna screw it up.
So back to you. Do you want to quit? What are your plans to do so? It will all be so much easier if she can be there and support you because otherwise she will probably just come to resent you and your problem. I know it’s rough but if she doesn’t or won’t support you or doesn’t want to be with you then let the door close. Make yourself right. Go to AA, a counselor, church, anything where you can build a solid road to recovery. If she loves you she will come around. Show her you mean bussines, which is easier said that done, but it can be done.
We’ve all been in your shoes in one way or another. Hang in there. Talk to people on this forum. Don’t let the evil clown in your head convince you to pick up that delightfully packaged poison.