Hi Cole, sorry to hear it’s been so hard for you. Tobacco (nicotine) is a helluva drug; I’ve got friends in recovery from alcohol, tobacco, and sex addiction who tell me the tobacco was pretty hard!
(Edit: I generally find Dr’s are pretty knowledgeable people - what are the risks with these medications? If your Dr is hesitant that’s something to consider; there may be reasons. It also may be true that there are programs & combinations of supports that might help you quit without having to take whatever risks are tied to these substances.)
In any case though you can quit: thousands have quite before you and there’s no reason you can’t do it. There is a 12-step program for quitting nicotine:
And there is a good thread about it here on TS - might be some good advice there:
Take care Cole & remember: you’re a good person who deserves a safe, sober life where you can be your full self. 