Hey just checking in on you how’s it going my thoughts have been on you and the endurance and determination to free yourself once and for all. It’s 1.30 am here in UK so I’m just off to bed my sleep is all over the place I. Getting around 4 hours which is better than nothing
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Dont worry. You will and u will begin to eat alot. I gained a good 20lbs then about 6 months i leveled out and lost some. So you will see that improve alil after 15 days.
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It’s almost 8:30pm here … thanks for checking in 
I’m in St. Louis ! I really appreciate it . It was another rough day … but I’m pushing thru.
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Yeah the insomnia and restless legs are not too bad right now. I’m down to 2mg now I will go with that for a week then 1 then 1/2 and I will be out of strips. I get a nap during the day and stretch my legs out good… I’m okay I expect all the withdrawal symptoms to hit me so im aware what’s going on when they happen. The emotional part sucks but oh well what can we do but feel them and move on. That’s funny about the walking dead lol 
it’s crazy the stuff we put ourselves through. But we will get through it all and get our lives back in some semblance of normalcy. Stay strong and keep your head up God bless
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I lost my sister a couple years ago to an overdose and self medicated after that and now I’m feeling all that too. It really fuckin sucks . But yea we’ll get thru it !!
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Yes we will get through it .and my condolences for the loss of your sister. Keep reaching out
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@Erijade I haven’t responded before but I have been reading everyday and keeping up with your journey! You are so strong and I can’t wait to see you come out on the other side of this!
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But you made it through, you are proving to yourself daily that you can do this.
Sending lots of strength.
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Ur so kind 
! thank you so much for your support … it means more than you know ! I re read all these posts, usually in the evening or when I feel like I’m having a moment of weakness, so thanks for saying that I hope that you are doing well !!
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Omg Seriously !!? What a small world ! … I worked at the hustler club in east stl for 12 years!! Started out a dancer and after I found out I was pregnant I bartended there !! Just quit there when covid hit … but I put myself thru a little school and started working in a dental office on the Illinois side … it’s HARD AS FUCK TO GET SOBER HERE !! …but Florida is nice! Me and my son just got back from Orlando 3 weeks ago!! All The toll roads are maddening lmao but I guess Ya get used to it lol … I’ll never go without the E Z pass ever again Lmao … I lived off the st.Charles rock road for a little while and then south county near telegraph.
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And I’m so sorry to hear about your friend … I actually lost my sister to an overdose a few years ago… she passed away in a hotel down in the city 
I miss her every. single. day !
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Damn it really is a small world !! At least Ya kno what I’m going thru then … and yea, it’s sooooo easy to score dope here … that’s y I gotta get myself stronger but I’m staying clean so far … I really like soco… I know exactly where ur talking about!! I kno that area very well !! Too well smh 
… glad u were able to make it out of here alive .
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And no there isn’t a lot of of resources to get clean unless ur prepared to go to Chicago 
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Lol I went to passages in Cali before … “I was an addict and now I’m not” lmao 
yea ok !! Lol smh
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It’s crazy that We’re all gambling with our lives each and every time we use … especially now that fent is being put into everything here … even pressing it into fake pills … that’s some scary shit… I hope I can stay clean … I really need this … and that’s great for you that girl was able to help u out… I was seeing some quack dr. In Clayton several years ago… I was actually on the suboxone program when suboxone was fairly new … where I got 90 8mg sub tabs a month for free for an entire year . That was entirely wayyy too much medicine to be giving to me!!
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I dont find it very shocking. as back 10 years ago when i sold pills. u had to be careful for people selling “fake” perk 30s. It got kinda crazy when states started cracking down on the pill mills and doctors. Things got a bit desperate at one point. Thats when i kinda switched over to dope as that got easier to find. The fakes looked identical set side by side same imprints and everything you cant tell by looking at them.
Day 13! I finally slept a little last night… I think I was just so worn out and exhausted from going so many days without any sleep that i just passed out lol… I’m not feeling too bad at the moment…thanks for askin , it’s hitting in waves tho … I’ll be fine one min and then sick the next but anyways , how are you doing today?
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I’m sorry your going through those withdrawals I don’t know you but I believe in your journey girl keep up the good work I’ll pray for you…
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The greatest feeling when sleep finally comes. Hang in there. Your crushing it!!
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