Hi Josh - welcome back, little brother. I am glad you are alive and free. The only way I know how to assuage the shame and guilt is to get back on a sobriety program, rededicate myself, and work on sobriety first, before anything else.
One great thing about TS is that it keeps me wary, reminds me that if I don’t do something about my alcoholism, it’ll do something about me. Every day.
Welcome back Josh! Sorry to hear about your rough relapse, but glad you are back. Moderating never worked for me either, so I feel you there. Hope you stick around! Lots of very active new folks on here working hard!
Welcome back. It takes courage to come back, admit fault and dust yourself off so props to you for that. You know what it takes to do this. You’re not the only one to relapse or slip up we’ve all done it. What matters is your here now. Be kind to yourself and learn from your slip up. Use it as fuel to drive you on yoir journey. You CAN do this!
Welcome back. Man, that feeling like you’re doing so good and that you’ve got it under control enough to moderate is a terrible trap. The important thing is that you’re back and you’re ready to go forward again.
I was wondering where you were and did get a little worried. I fucked up too but look, we’re both here, with some sober time under our belts from last time so we know what need to be done.
I’m taking it from your post that you’ve pulled yourself out from the depths and (although probably feeling like shit…) are ready, set and determined to do this again. We’re here for you, but you know that.
Welcome back I’m happy to see you
Glad to see you come back, after a good whack of sobriety I can’t imagine how hard it is to relapse and then own it, I’ve seen a lot of relapses that don’t come back!
Have a read of your 500 days post from Feb 5, you know what you need to do