So, I was really inspired by my guitar idol, Mike McCready, and his journey to sobriety back in the mid 90s. I was watching videos of him discussing sobriety and he mentioned that he had gotten really excited in his sobriety and tried to help everyone he could. He says it was naive, and I took it to heart, because I’ve been getting involved in trade school via my VA benefits, moving, getting married (maybe), flying my kids in this year, dealing with mother and her recent cancer diagnosis, working in the nonprofit arena, etc. It really made me think.
I’ve noticed that the urge to lapse is getting stronger the busier I get, but I’m not always going to be have something to do. So, my question is, who’s experienced this? Am I off kilter to want to help others? How much is too much? I fell compelled by the recovery program I’m in to just be compassionate and I can’t afford to help everyone. I guess I’m asking if this is actually pretty normal? If it helps, I’m sitting at 10 months sober.