On day 4. Coke avoiding. Had a thought of it. 20% to run out and take, 80% to keep clean. Lots of stress now and last night doesn’t help the situation.
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Can you do something to get through the stress tonight without using? Go for a run, call a friend, go to bed early? I don’t pretend to know how it feels to crave coke specifically but if you just get through tonight then tomorrow you can worry about using. Why do you want to stop? I know you have a reason, hold onto that
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I’ll go to sleep early. I’m just grateful I am giving it my all or else I would just take and plan for another quit date. One day at a time.
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Trust me, you’ll regret using the coke and starting over at square one. Stay here in the sober time app and talk with those of us who understand. One day at a time, you will be so much better sober 
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maybe a meeting might help meet like minded people who have been were u are now and can help wish you well
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It’s not worth it. Your life sober and clean is valuable. During your worst moments sober and clean you have to remember that the temporary fix will not last very long and can destroy any last bit of the life have ahead of you. You may feel alone. You may feel like no one understands. But I do. I’m 76 days clean and it’s been a struggle but I’m proud of every single day. If no one has told you today! I have love for you. Keep posting and sharing. Don’t keep it in. Just for today give all the problems of your world to your understanding of a higher power.
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You’ll just regret using the coke and letting yourself down again - remember all the other times you’ve done this before and how it felt.
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Find enjoyment in a new or old hobbie… you might think you dont have the attention but even if you have a moment of ‘i want to pick up’ go do the activity. One page of a book, a lego project, get some wood and try a bit of crafting. Keep the gremlins away by distraction even if its a ten minute break.