Hey,
So I’m going through a lot right now and really could use someone to talk to. I haven’t had any of my meds since i got bailed out of jail 3 weeks ago. I’m an emotional rollercoaster and mess. Dealing with court and bf/father of my kids ended things for good yesterday after 14 years. We live together but he refuses to be around here unless I’m gone. I’m so deoressed right now, and only reason I’m still sober is because i can’t drive or go anywhere. I’m completely alone besides my kids, but I’ve been freaking out on them due to my emotions being all over the olace and trying to deal with all this. I feel like complete shit and don’t know what to do with myself.
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Hi Samantha, I dont have a lot of time to talk but im so sorry you have all this on your plate and are depressed. The best thing you can do is stay sober, thats the only way we can hope to learn how to deal with our emotions in a healthy way.
What could you do to feel a little bit better and stay sober? Read some sodber literature? Pray/meditate? Exercise/walk? AA meeting? Call a loved one? Posting on here is a great first step and I have done the same in tough situations. Remember to take it one day, one hour, one minute at a time. Just stay sober today 
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Hi Samantha. Sorry your having a gloomy day. Life can really suck sometimes. Just remember that how we deal with the suck is key to moving away from it. Do healthy things, don’t sabotage yourself. Every hour try to relax your brain with a short mindfulness exercise. Drink plenty of water. Go to a couple online AA/NA meetings tonight. Get out for a short walk. You got this.
Make a short list of some important things to do over the next couple days. Nothing to drastic, small things that wont take to much effort. Have you called your Doctor to renew meds?
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Concentrate on getting through this night. You are sober by circumstance right now, not by choice. Maybe you can use this night as a springboard towards recovery. Desperation can be a gift if used effectively. There are so many supportive women in this community you can learn from and lean on. Give yourself a break, and consider sobriety. I can assure you that if you don’t want to get sober …. You won’t. Set some small goals while you work things out. The support is here. I wish you the best at this hard time. Stay strong 
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Oh dear, big big hugs to you 
That’s a tough situation.
What helped me in my breakup was getting my meds adjusted (please see a doctor to renew asap), focussing on the things I CAN do (deep cleaning the toilet was my goto for instant emotional release), make a plan how to move forward in little steps, reach out for help and support EVERYWHERE, people, institutions, church, social workers, your probation worker if you have one, think out of the box (works best when sober). And talk about it. Come here, share, you are not alone.
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