It’s amazing to me how an app and forum (the people in it) like this can have such a positive impact in maintaining sobriety. I downloaded this the first day I decided to put down the drink for good. That was 35 days ago now. Is my shit together…? Lol, far from it, but I’m sober and that’s a great place to start! In a moment like this it’s hard for me to not have doubts about things though. I truly believe had I not quit my job I wouldn’t be sober right now. That job was eating me away at my very core. Yet here I sit over 2 months later, unemployed (but sober), after resigning from a nearly 6 figure a year job… It’s becoming hard to not feel a tad bitter about my life decisions up to this point. I’ve basically turned into a hermit to attain this sobriety. I’ve gained a bunch of weight and am totally unmotivated to do much of anything. If I didn’t have some money in the bank I’d be up Shit Creek right now. I think I just really need to get back to work. Other than drinking, my work was my only true routine and I was damn good at both those functions. Now I’ve eliminated both of those things at once and am stumbling and fumbling around like a fucking fool… but I’m sober. I’m not sure where this is going, but I needed to get it off my chest. I realize that most of my problems are self inflicted and only I can pull myself up above the water line. All I can say is things are tough. This isn’t easy, and shit just got real!
It is easy to become hermit like when taken out of your normal routine. Your always remember the good times of the past. Get a hobby, get some interests not so easy when they have never been part of your life before. Perhaps I have more time to think now that my mind is clear on wake up and not midday.
I am hoping that something will gell and the road forward is defined and clear, but still waiting.
Perhaps consider starting 2 new positive changes today. You could start a gym membership, that has helped me tremendously during these winter months. I also recommend AA or any other sober group you can interact with. It’s awesome you have a good sober base started. However you need to start taking steps to make yourself comfortable with your new lifestyle in public.
To me @alpine_1975 ,your decisions seem fearless. Not many people would be willing to walk away from a well paying job and get sober. I see a warrior within you and I think many blessings will start happening for you.
You’ve done a great thing, a GREAT thing.
And not just for you, for your family.
It comes at a cost - but nothing great doesn’t!
Maybe you could look at a job doing something that’ll make you feel good every day rather than bad? Even if it’s at half the salary? As long as you pay the bills and put a little away for a holiday.
Just don’t doubt what you’ve done and why!
I quit my good paying job as well in order for me to even attempt at not drinking. I was the GM and buyer for a big liquor store here in Colorado. That was September 13th 2016. I was really down amd I could not stop drinking because i was so depressed and anxious about everything I had done. I had to go to minnesota with family in order for me to “find myself”. Luckly my wife has a good job and we are getting by. I have found a passion that I want to do and will hopefully be making money at soon. I know the feeling you are at now. I decided to put the gym into my routine, even just 2 or 3 times a week to start. Trying new things everyday and finding a passion that is not money centric😉 I know these are the things everyone says but not everyone has to quit their job in order to quit there addiction so I definitely get it.
You know how in aa they say “keep coming till the miracle happens?” Well, I think that yours must be just around the corner @alpine_1975! You have been a huge presence and support on this forum. The right job has got to be out there and have faith that you will find it. 
@Gibb,
Thanks for the encouragement Joe. You’ve always been up front with me. I feel like things are moving in the right direction. Had a nice hike today, about 4 miles. I can’t believe how sore my joints are. Just shows how out of shape I really am. I’m in a bit more of a hurry to get back to work though. My wife is still a stay at home mom, but is at a point where she can work part time and truly needs to start looking. I think part of her is still in shock/denial that we have zero income right now. Basically to get by I cashed out my 401k from the 4 years I’ve been in NC which was a pretty good chunk of money after penalties. Not a great scenario, but like you said, I have my sobriety and sanity, so that’s huge. I realize I don’t need to share all the details, but it feels good just to say it… It’s not like I’ve communicated my nitty gritty situation to too many people in my life at this point. I have a good opportunity with a strong company starting with a phone interview tomorrow. The position will require at least 2-3 more progressive interviews to land an offer. Nothing good comes easily. So I’m preparing my A game and hoping for the best. It would be healthy and beneficial to get back to work. I actually enjoy what I do, but if for the wrong company can be horrible experience.
On another note, the in-laws have semi-retired to the place I’d like to retire one day in Bend, Oregon. They’ve extended the offer to have us move in with them until we were able to settle down, aquire jobs, and get back on our feet. Do I want to move in with my in-laws at 41…? Fuck No, but the idea is in the wheelhouse if this job doesn’t pan out… lol. Not to mention it’s like 3600 miles across the country. I’ve already done that move once before. We shall see. It will all work itself out.
@Kareness
Thank you for the words of encouragement! It means a lot to me!
Good luck either your phone interview tmw. I hope you nail it!
Life is one hell of an adventure!! Glad you enjoy what you do but your definitely right if your with the wrong company it can screw you. People sometimes forget that both the company and the person have to be right in order for it to be successful for both parties. I know you’ll do awsome on the phone interview tomorrow!! Kick some ass👊
