The Caffeine Circus Cycle of Fail

That’s true. I’ve made some experiences with these things. One of the last times I tried I noticed after some weeks that I was drinking 4 hot chocolates a day and inhaling dark chocolate along with it. Like alcohol free beverages. It’s strange with me. I think now having a decaf once in a while outside home is okay but the decaf I’d buy contains still some amount and I’ll be finding myself upping the intake to get some caffeine in. :see_no_evil_monkey: There are lupine or chicory which could be an option at some point.

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Think i’ll be checking in rather here than causing rolling eyes in other threads over my caffeine journey. Probably won’t last long as it’s not my thread and I cannot post more than three consecutive times. Anyways
Today was the first day at work and when I rode there I was desperately hoping to find some chocolate which I was expecting when I left before vacation. So there was none. I cannot trick myself. Too bad.
What I notice is a decrease in my performance in the gym. It’s exhausting even the deload sessions I am doing this week. But when that’s the price, I’ll have to pay it. I’ve gone through this too often. One cup a day. Won’t work. I feel incredibly stupid over saying something like this about caffeine. But with coffee/caffeine comes sweetener way too often. And during the last week my digestion became much better. And I am trying to figure out: am I actually hungry or only bored or whatever.

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I’m following along here. I can watch for your 3 post limit so post away. I know caffeine will be something I need to quit too to be my healthiest so your words are helping me armor myself.
You’re brave, it motivates me.

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Checking in here. Tomorrow will be double digits :partying_face:
I slept 6 hours but only until 2 am. But felt surprisingly awake today at work. Work is stressing me a lot atm. Not the workload but mentally. It’s too difficult to describe.
On day 24 of my cycle so still some stability there. I decided that I won’t work against my cycle when I change things in my life anymore. It’s making the possibility of failure a lot higher.

As the weather is beautiful I thought today was the day to get my bike out again. I am developing some anxiety or aversion around cycling which is nerving me. There was some wind but I gave it a try. Tail wind uphill, head wind down and straight going back. What can go wrong. I am still glad I did it for over 2h.

Also I started to listen some quit lit caffeine related and watch some documentaries. Gotta tackle it the same way as alcohol. It’s not good for me and in the future it’ll be even more expensive due to droughts because of climate change.

Edit: I am reading some of my old posts here. Omg. Wtf. It’s a bit funny but it’s also a bit sad. Idk.

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Yeah, haha, but you have still been drinking while you were thinking to be sleeping like a baby. Dead is probably a good description. Knocked off. :grimacing: I know you. :joy:

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@Puzzled Check in here as much as you need. I have found that caffeine addiction is the one addiction that many on this app will blatantly disregard, despite the fact that it is a substance and it is addictive. A couple years ago I decided I would try to allow other people to support me (as I got off all the other substances by myself without support) and it was a joke. I had people tell me to just try to cut back, when those same people also talked elsewhere about their friends and family telling them they didn’t have a problem and to just moderate their drinking. There were other issues on this app of certain attitudes against caffeine addiction that I ran into as well, but I don’t want to wade into all of that. All of that is to say that in this thread you’ll be taken seriously. No eyerolling in this thread.

I’m more than 8 months off caffeine, and for me I learned that anything that could remotely cause anything remotely close to a caffeine effect couldn’t be used, even if it wasn’t caffeine. I was able to get off caffeine a couple years ago for a couple months, but I tried some nootropics with the idea that they’d be good for my brain, and within a week I was back on caffeine. Chocolate has no effect on me, so I still eat a small amount.

Good job getting into the double digits! You’re doing great. I know it’s tough right now, but it really is worth it. I also know these things are different for everyone, but I was able to get off every single medication I was taking once I stripped caffeine from my life. Sleep eventually will improve, but it takes time for the brain and body to adjust. Hang in there.

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I didn’t sleep well at all. Problems with my blood sugar and I was wide awake at 2 am. Bit compared to caffeinated I still am functional. Not tired tired. It’s crazy. Strange. But I honestly prefer this to not sleeping, caffeinated and being very tired.

One day at a time.

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Finishing a first working week without caffeine. Ma sleep became worse. Tonight roughly 4 h. I tried to rest a bit in bed in the afternoon which was good. The cravings are less. Bought some grain coffee which I like as a replacement.

Still, I feel very different tiredness-wise. On I go.

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I think you are definitely in the tough part of the quit. Keep going. A week of work without a caffeine crutch is huge.

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Listening to on my hike today

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Checking in. I will treat this as I treated it alcohol. I rode my bike for the first time this year and it was okay. I even felt some sense of happiness, warmth inside my belly thinking about my upcoming 14 day without caffeine tomorrow :see_no_evil_monkey: It feels more realistic now compared to last times. I also threw off the artificial sweeteners off the diet which is helping me a lot. And like with alcohol this time around it feels like a switch that was flipped. And because of this I cannot give people good advice on how to get/stay sober. I was lucky. I don’t want to go back. Is this a pink cloud? We’ll see.
One day at a time.

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Youre making great progress! Cutting out the fake sugars is a great idea.

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14 days caffeine free and I am at a low of sleep, not even 4 h this night. Whyyyyyyyy? :sob: I attended an online yin yoga, yoga nidra session even to get ready for bed.

I need to be patient, let some hormonal cycles pass to get insight. But I am struggling with this. But I also rely on my body that she will get the sleep sooner or later. At least I am not as tired as under caffeine.

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Checking in.
I am feeling something is different today. I slept a bit longer, 6.5h but still not enough and I start to feel my lack of sleep.
I’ve decided yesterday to change my starting date to Monday, 20th as on Sunday I had my last coffee mid morning. So today is again day 14 :grimacing:
Also day 30 of my cycle so I’ll wait and see.

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Evening check in.
I was really struggling today. I could not really concentrate, I felt some sort of hunger although I just ate. I had all of a sudden really dark thoughts. I am grateful for a virtual friend here. I was so tired in a new way. I almost had an accident with myself on my bike because I was unconcentrated. I even bought OTC sleeping pills.
Then, after I dragged myself to a pilates class a new cycle started, only after 30 days. Which now means I’ll wait with the sleeping pills and am surprised that my dark time only lasted today.
One day at a time. What can we learn, hormones are still in the game. These bastards :see_no_evil_monkey:

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I always feel better once I’ve passed a month of any addiction. Those hormones are a bitch.

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Hang in there. It will eventually get better.

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Day 16 today. The obsession about my sleep is currently a bit away. My sleep didn’t improve yet.
But I feel so much better. I know I am repetitive but I will remind me of this. I can concentrate a lot better and longer. I am less irritable.

I had a massage today. Sort of milestone gift for me. It was 30 min and I liked it a lot. She has other techniques and I’ll go on giving myself another milestone massage :upside_down_face: that’s a good gift I think.

For decades I drank an depressant and caffeine and once I let go alcohol the depressant was gone. Hmmm. Now i’ll see what happens with neither.

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Hi all- cutting back caffeine because it’s not good for my anxiety. I want to cut it out altogether but I’m going to get there slowly because I can’t tolerate a “cold turkey” approach to this insidious addiction and still cope with life and work :confused: not sure if i can still post here. I can wait until I’ve cut it out entirely if that’s more appropriate.

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Yes you can still post here. Some people can do cold turkey and some can’t. I tapered off. That worked for me. Like you, I had to remain at least functional, and the withdrawal effects for me, even tapering, were deeply unpleasant. It took several months after my last dose to feel like I’d really recovered from it. Just like how I feel about all the other drugs I’ve gotten off of, I never want to go back.

You can do it.

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