It is my experience that we all have had some sort of traumatic event or series of events that has shaped our lives into the slavery that we live when we are using. All we want to do is numb the pain that we feel. Because we don’t know how to deal with all the emotions that come along with dealing with ourselves!!! I have had a lot of experience in trying to get clean over the years and the emotional aspect of this disease still baffles me and has sent me deep into my disease in trying to deal with it.
We are a complex mix of innate personality, experiences, and choices. If my past made me drink like I did, then everyone who had those experiences or worse would drink like I did. But they don’t. Whatever it is that led me down that road, I am grateful for that which has led me back!
I hope you find your way