I couldn’t bring myself to get out of bed this morning. I’m trying to drag myself out of a depression episode but it’s so hard. I knew I needed to get up but I physically couldn’t…. My significant other thought I was being lazy. We fought the majority of the day after that. I find it really sad that the only thing I look forward to is going to meetings at night… I’m feeling weak but at least I get the support I need from my recovery family. Thank you for reading if you have and feel free to drop me some positive vibes. One day at a time 
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You’re not weak. You’re strong. You’re facing your problems and dealing with them the best way possible. By seeking and finding support. Alone it’s not possible. together we can do this. We need each other. One day at a time. And depression is a b*tch. Keep going. Hugs.
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Our minds, just like our bodies, need time to heal. Do what you need to do for you. It will get better! Hang in there
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It will get better. Fresh air and sunshine was the only thing that helps me. It’s healing to body, mind and soul. Maybe it just was the time alone that allowed me to process the flood of feelings I wasn’t used to allowing myself to feel. Be patient with yourself.
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Hi Shae 
There have been times in my life when I was so depressed I found it hard to get out of bed and I beat myself up and felt guilty for it. Looking back I wish I was gentler on myself. You are facing depression AND getting sober. That makes you pretty strong in my eyes. Sometimes something as simple as getting up and making my bed made me feel good, like I had accomplished something for my day. And even if I wanted to get back into bed- it felt cozy and special getting into a made bed. Sending love 
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I’m proud of you for getting up. It doesn’t help that when depression settles in real hard, literally nothing seems to make it better. And then your inner voice knows, i should be getting up, which doesn’t help! I’ve been depressed for weeks. Today i was manic, doing all the things that i haven’t had the energy or interest (yet all the guilt) to accomplish. I am grateful for today, but i think we should also be grateful for the depressed days. The world is rough. Expectations are high. It is all we can do to stay alive.
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Thank you so much for your kind words and offering of support. I’m still on the path and I’m starting to feel better. I appreciate you
Thank you, I’m starting to go easier on myself. Feelings of guilt and shame aren’t going to help me progress only regress. I know I can rise above this and I wouldn’t have such an easy go about it without the outpouring of support I’m getting from wonderful souls like your own. I appreciate you taking the time to share a few words with me. Bless you
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Thank you for your support! Days like that one are never easy but as they say this too shall pass. I’m so greatful for your support and you taking the time to share some words of advise. Bless you sweet lady!
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I resonate with everything you have said…. I too go through manic episodes and it’s not ever easy. Entertaining for those around us because that’s when I seem to be my funniest. But all jokes aside I am getting help with my mental state, I need to stop trying to self medicate and actually follow my doctors regime. Thank you for taking the time to share your advise and support, I appreciate your kind words. I know I cannot do this alone and I am so thankful and blessed to have connected with such beautiful souls as I have on this forum. I know I am responsible for the work on my end but it wouldn’t be possible for me without people like you rooting for me. Bless you, and your beautiful soul 
It’s tough girl. Especially when our significant others see what we are going through in recovery and label it as something it isn’t. My hubby sometimes does that and will sort of negatively label what I’m going thru instead of being supportive or being a listening ear. It makes it tough. I don’t know about u, but it makes me want to shut down and not express anything. Thankfully, there are supports thru mtgs and TS. I’m sorry ur hurting right now 
be gentle with yourself and where you are at. One day at a time 
and baby steps. Some days I have to literally plan 1 step at a time. For example… next I will brush my teeth and so on. I’m glad ur here and glad u posted 
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I feel you big time. I’ve only got 5 days on my current streak, but just about every one of them has started with a sense of dread when I wake up and realize I won’t be able to start drinking in a few hours.
But I know that after I get a few more days under my belt of waking up not feeling like I was hit by a bus, not dehydrated and stinking of booze, and I can genuinely recognize and appreciate that, it’ll get easier.
There will be hard days, but maybe they can start just a little better when you do your best to focus on all the negative things you’re not feeling.
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That’s exactly how I feel too! I try so hard to not take my emotional shortcomings out on those around me but then it’s labeled as me isolating and avoiding…. In a way I guess it is but in the end I’m still here, I’m sober, and I’m working on re becoming the person I thought he had fallen in love with. It’s extra hard when he’s the only physical support I have in my life. I come from a family of addicts that don’t see a reason why I’m starting this journey of sobriety. Kind of backwards huh… I’m doing this to become a healthy mother and wife. I’m doing this for the greater good and I don’t need to surround myself with those in active addiction just to feel a little love. I deserve more than that and I’m starting to learn to love myself beyond anybody else’s capacity. Thank you for your support I really appreciate you taking the time to drop some words of wisdom. Bless you
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One day at time! I’ve never had a sober streak, this is the first and I hope and pray it to be consistent. I never thought I had a problem I just thought other people had a problem with me having a “good time” lord how wrong I was living in that mentality. Im learning to be kind to myself and above all I need to take it easy on myself. I can’t take back anything I did but I can build a better me for the future. Feel free to lean on me if you need to, I’ve been leaning on the lot of you. I appreciate you taking the time to share with me. I relate to what you have said and it’s given me some new thinking material. Kudos on your five days! We can get through this!
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Yes… ur right! The ultimate goal is being clean and sober for today. We aren’t perfect, we are human, and ya we are going to be “off” bcuz emotions that we have literally stuffed for however long is coming to the surface. I get resentful and get down and depressed bcuz of my hubby and bcuz of how I feel I’m being treated. But ultimately it hurts me more when I’m letting those words from others effect me so much. And we deserve better Its just tough but each day is a new day. And a new day to change and feel better about ourselves and what we are working towards xo
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That’s what I heard tonight by OG it was his sober 17th birthday but he said when you don’t feel like getting up to hit a meeting, GO TO THE MEETING so It’s good you at least got up to go. 
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And I also want to commend you on breaking the cycle within your family. That’s not an easy task to do but you are doing it! Proud of you hope the test of your day/night is better for you hugs
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Hey Shae it is not weakness If you are depressed. It can look like laziness to others. And mentally we accuse ourselves of the same thing. You can not will yourself out of it, sadly. If you could, it would be laziness I guess.
Have you spoken to a therapist to get to the roots of your depressions? I know I could not get out of mine which I’d had for more than 1/2 my life alone. I’m a lot better now thanks to gruelling work with an experienced professional.
Wishing you strength and kindness and sending you a hug 
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