Eh, not my best day. Drank enough last night to have a little hangover today. Not horrible but I’ve spent the day trying to recover and sit here thinking how stupid this is when bbn I could be having a perfectly pleasant day. And I’m exhausted, irritable, and just want to go to bed. But ready to wake up tomorrow back to myself.
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Good here hun!
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Shake it off! You got this. Keep moving forward!
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you are a trooper! we are all so human and open in sharing our struggles. you arre an example for me whenever I freak out from the pain. I have started my pain meds. feel like a zombie and have lots of pains. But… I do not drink today. Over the last week I relapsed so often on binge eating in effort not to drink. that I ruined my digestive track even more. So one day at the time focusing on self care and dealing with the pain with compassion, keeping the destructive anger at arms length
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And I thought of one more. Griffonia, the best source of 5-HTP
@Marisim. no need to reply when not ready… do not know how to sent private message. But hang in there love. hope all is ok. and if not, that is also ok. we are here!
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Hi everyone. This room has become pretty quiet so I just wanted to teach out… No matter where each of us are on this journey, we are a community. Please dont ever feel embarrassed or like you shouldn’t be here. We made it so far as a group and there are some strong relationships forming… let’s keep going! We are all in this together!
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So I’m on part 2 of the end of life doula course this weekend. Last night I kept waking up thinking oh no I cant be hungover for tomorrow! Like my body and mind expected that I was going to be today even though I didn’t drink anything. My anxiety level was up, I felt embarrassed and guilty - the whole 9 yards. It’s like a phantom, impending hangover that I dont have… anyone else experienced this?
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Hi you guys I just had to push the reset button. There was so much going on, for example one of my closest friends lost her baby.
I decided to forgive myself. 12 days weren’t that bad I guess. From now I start again. Checking in tomorrow.
Yes I feel ashamed, but I won’t give up.
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Interesting. Haven’t had that exactly, but with the springtime weather fluctuations I get pretty bad sinus pressure, headaches, ear pressure etc and I started feeling it last night. Since waking up without a hangover is relatively new for me, I was expecting to feel like I had one because of the pressure in my head. Which I did, but as soon as I got up and around it started to clear up. I think I get what you’re saying about the anticipation of feeling that way, and it triggering some shame or other feelings as a result. The good news is you didn’t have a hangover this morning! I hope your seminar continues to go well and you get out of the experience what you seek. Sounds like important work.
Hear, hear!
Maris have you heard of the serenity prayer?
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I am at 10 days and 2 hours! Went to a gathering ladt night. Lots of alcohol. I brought my cranberry juice and soda water. Stayed away from alcohol even though it was in plain sight constantly.
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Congrats on double digits and getting through that potentially triggering event! Way to go!!!
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I’ll check it out tomorrow! Tomorrow’s going to be my new start. Thank you so much.
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My desire to know how you all are hanging in is stronger than my fear of not being good enough. I keep checking… so have a good day you all! stay clean and away from hording toilet paper. 
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10 days 4 hours here; at work already and feeling good. 
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Out hard last night, was feeling really grouchy for whatever reason, but I’m up before dawn and feeling refreshed. I might need to try taking a nap today to stem the tide of irritability
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This quote popped up in my FB memories, I had posted it last year, and it still feels powerfully relevant.
"Some periods of our growth are so confusing that we don’t even recognize that growth is happening. We may feel hostile or angry or weepy and hysterical, or we may feel depressed. It would never occur to us, unless we stumbled on a book or a person who explained to us, that we were in fact in the process of change, of actually becoming larger, spiritually, than we were before.
Whenever we grow, we tend to feel it, as a young seed must feel the weight and inertia of the earth as it seeks to break out of its shell on its way to becoming a plant. Often the feeling is anything but pleasant. But what is most unpleasant is the not knowing what is happening. Those long periods when something inside ourselves seems to be waiting, holding its breath, unsure about what the next step should be, eventually become the periods we wait for, for it is in those periods that we realize that we are being prepared for the next phase of our life and that, in all probability, a new level of the personality is about to be revealed." —Alice Walker, Living by the Word
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Doing ok, had another roller coaster of a day yesterday. Looking forward to tonight - quiet time at home… I’m going to ask my husband to make supper while I’m at the course today - he doesnt know that yet… 
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