Had 26 days and fucked it up feeling terrible today. Just want to hide and cry. I have no sober friends to talk to. My boyfriend is in recovery to the last 26 days were hard but I felt good and proud. We got in an argument he accused me of sneaking beers and I just got the case of the fuck its and ruined everything.
What lead up to the laps? Kno6what your triggers are and trying to avoid them is critical to recovery. Are you attending meetings? If not I suggest you do. Also, next time you feel the cravings post here before you drink/use. We are here to help get you through the rough time. NEVER CRAVE ALONE We’re here to help you with your journey.
Maybe try a meeting get phone numbers lift the phone before the drink wish you well
I know you’re feeling terrible, but hiding and crying won’t make anything go away. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and face it head on. Shit happens. We’re here for you tho!
Thanks its nice to have people to talk to. I live in a small town only 1 AA building and everyone there I know most of them Im not fond of and a lot of people are only there because of court not because they want to be so I dont go to meetings because of that.
I don’t blame you. Kinda kills the second ‘A’ in that meeting…
I have a few suggestions. If you have transportation, maybe try a different town. There’s something called smart recovery, and that can be done online
Small town in the middle of no where 3 or 4 hours in any direction to get to a bigger city. Im familar with smart recovery how to I find the online meetings?
I just googled it and it came up a couple of search results down
Thank you very much