I don’t know what I expected to feel like after I stopped drinking but I knew it would not be pleasant. It’s only day two and my irritability, depressing thoughts and feeling of anger has skyrocketed, which if you knew me in person, is the COMPLETE opposite of my normal personality. I don’t even know how i’m feeling; There is some many different thoughts ripping through my head and things going on both physically and emotionally, with each one pleading with me to have a few drinks.
Luckily, work and the frigid English weather is able to distract me for a few minutes at a time. It’s a welcome silence compared to the constant “Just have one, it won’t be bad. You’ve earned it” which that part of me is trying to convince me of. It’s day two and I just have to focus on making it to day three. My goal is to fight each day at a time.
So if you are reading this and going through the same: We got this. Today is a new day, make it a good one.
Cheers.
I don’t want to pretend to have all the answers but I am studying nursing and we just had this lecture, yes I sat there for 4 hrs like a complete hypocrite as if I didn’t have a problem! But long term alcohol use actually lowers the body’s natural dopamine and serotonin levels because the body stops making it as it learns to depend on the alcohol to heighten ur mood (temporarily). Without the false sense of a high w alcohol use the body has to relearn to make its own feel good chemicals again. We crave the alcohol because we’ve trained our brain to depend on it to feel good. All this is to say this is a normal part of the process. Take it easy on urself! It helped me to realize no I’m not just weak, no I’m not just a glutton for punishment and no I’m not crazy…we r going through something pretty major and will get through it as we allow our bodies to heal!! Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming
only a suggestion maybe try a AA meeting might help you stop fighting it . i took b7 in the early days and went back to the gym and started hill walking again best of luck be safe
