You guys make me smile 
Great start into this wonderful week for you all 
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Morning all 36 days of sobriety! 4 days with codependent recovery. Today is an easy day. I have one client at 10am. I am finishing up my CCST-I class (78% done). I start Trauma and Addiction next. I am extremely curious. I have been able to smile, laugh, practice self acceptance. I have been getting comfortable in my decisions, my choices, my thoughts and myself. I am able to model this for my youngest. She declined the job interview yesterday as the individual basically vomitted all over her with her entire life story and barely discussed what her role, guidelines, expectations etc were. My daughter was suppose to work with a little boy (not to be a babysitting but wanted her to be a respite which she wasn’t comfortable with). Since she wanted to meet me, I went but I mainly listened. At the end she said I really need receipts - she said if she can sign off or she pointed at me (saying if I could) so she can hand it in to claim. My daughter felt uncomfortable. She felt boundaries were being gently crossed. She decided this isn’t for her. I am very proud of her. I assured her something else will pop up. Until then we just focus on what we are doing. 
It felt nice not fixing, rescuing or figuring someone else’s life (including my daughter’s).
I have counseling with my oldest tomorrow. I emailed the receptist to ask if she was infact attending. I don’t have the resources to be waiting (for late show ups or missed appointments). I haven’t heard anything from her and that’s okay. I feel amazing knowing I don’t have to obsess over it. If she doesn’t want counseling that’s okay too. I want to continue my sobriety, my healing and to truly get to know me and at a place where I can put myself first.
I cannot thank you all enough. Putting up with my whiplash emotional flashbacks, my tearing up, my self hatred, my judgement and my animosity towards myself.
I am finally feeling grounded and I can’t explain it. It’s just good to be home.
I know I will have episodes. I am okay to have them. I am also bouncing back and my goal is to go through them and be able to apply the skills, program, tools etc to continue to be in recovery.
I hope I can be there and support you guys. Sorry I don’t know to say at times. I just offer photos in hopes it may help someone and focus on all the beautiful things our life has.
Love you intensely.
Lya
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OMG adorable
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Thankyou. I love the pictures you have been taking x
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Thank you.
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Just wanted to pop in and say good morning. I’m still waking up with a headache and still not feeling great. I don’t want to adult today. This thread makes me smile. 
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I don’t want to adult in the way of seeing my client LOL. Secretly I am hoping I can just continue my homework for school. I don’t want to be interrupted.
Sorry that is probably not the welcome you were hoping for this morning. How is the future sir? Treating you well?
Morning/evening . Your name reminds me of Morse code !!.. have a good day…
Good morning beautiful TS family
Hope you are all good. How are you @crystalclear? Hope you are feeling better!
Yesterday I had some quick cravings after the birthday party with eight 7 year Olds was done… My parents came around and had some beer /wine and then this feeling came over me… It would be so nice to sit back and relax with a glass of wine in my hand. But immediately this other me came back. NO!!! It would not be one glass. One would turn into many. And all the effort that I’m putting towards my sobriety would be gone with one glass. So I sticked to leftovers from cake 
Wishing everybody a great sober day!
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Morning Sunshine people
Great job on staying strong @anon35096624 Julia, you’ve changed so much! I reckon the great feeling this morning way outweighs the brief moment you could have had last night 
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Thanks Shell. Exactly this feeling is amazing! Big hugs to you 
Cake solves it 99% of the time, the other 1% is screaming.
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@anon35096624 thanks for checking on me. I had a good session with my therapist last night so that helped some. The way I’m feeling makes sense for the season of life I’m in. Facing all the things I need to face instead of hiding behind alcohol is just going to be hard for a bit. You sound like me with the wishing you could just relax with a glass of wine. Well done fighting back that thought! Cake is better anyway. Cake can solve almost any problem if you ask me!
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Morning all how is everyone today?
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Morning Lya it’s afternoon here. Have a good day 
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Fantastic work Julia. You are growing and blooming
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Morning everyone just popping on to share my news. I finished all the testing and I passed! I am now certified as a certified clinicial trauma specialist. I am beaming over here. I am onto that next course trauma & addiction. I have to say thank you all for helping me, listening to my and allowing me to narrative my story.
@Eke thank you. You have blessed me so much with your kindness. I am learning more every day about codependency and it feels so comfortable living for me. I am challenged to change and I can truly live intentionally.
@Pants I know we have had some tiffs in our conversations and I want to thank you for giving me the opportunity to be able to practice being relaxed in my body while being confronted or perhaps triggered/or being the person who triggered. Those situations are opportunities for me to truly exercise everything I have learned and I want to move forward.
@Natnat You reached out the very first day giving me an ear & shoulder. I want to thank you and extend the same for you. Over the last few weeks I have vomitted so much up. More than that it was vomitting my grief, my pain, my addictions, my trauma and finally I have brought up and out. Now that I have expectorated all of that garbage up I can be the person of support that I hope you could use or want. Please reach out. Your validation and compassion kept me coming.
@crystalclear Thank you for personally extending care and compassion through the posts. Liking my photography and being there on a scale when just a simple ‘I love your photos - I am here and I see you.’ Oh and I am out of likes! LOL. Trauma survivors such as myself such a small gesture of being seen is such an enormity of healing. I want to personally thank you and tell you what that did for me.
@Conor689908 You make me smile, you make me laugh and all your silly antics. I appreciate the care and approach. I know I haven’t been there for you and the others. I was so wrapped up in my own engulfed pain that I couldn’t see pass my windshield. Thank you for being an instrument of company, comfort and compassion. I, again want to let you know I am here for you as well. As we continue face forward healing and recovering.
@Frantasticooo you have been such a sweetheart & small notes of gentle love and care I have had from you - deeply impacted me. Thank you. I enjoy all your posts. I see you and hear you. I hope in the coming days we can continue to be supportive to each other (more me - your words gentleness have touched me deeply).
@ifs The laughter, concern and posts gets me to smile every day. Thank you. It means the world that eventhough I was chaotic - I have people here to have my back. Still care. Still acknowledge me. Still concerned and aren’t going anywhere. Thank you for being there and apart of my recovery along with healing.
I have more to type but my heart explodes with gratitude, compassion and kindness to you all. I wanted you to all know this.
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