Morning everyone. Feeling all the feels this morning. Waking up not being hungover is great. But trying to navigate all the feelings I’ve been stuffing is getting more challenging every day. Going to my usual women’s AA meeting in the morning but am considering going to one tonight. Weekend nights are still triggers for me. I recognize the desire to drink the weekend away. I really wish that desire would go away. I guess I just have to give it time. I’ve made it 59 days. And today I will get through the 60th without drinking. That’s my promise to myself.
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I did have cake last night! Just forgot to snap a pic. 
I didn’t get ice cream at the store but maybe this weekend I’ll get some. I can’t keep much in the house because I’ll eat it ALL. I have to start watching the sweets though. The waistline is getting out of control.
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You’re stronger than you think Cristel and you should be so proud. I understand the thing about emotions and having nowhere to hide from them anymore and it’s both freeing and very frightening but it was always going to be that way and always will no matter at what point we quit for good, I know you won’t give up all your good work you’ve fought so hard for, I find you an inspiration so you just do what you need to do for you to stay strong. Big hugs xx 
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I hear you! I am enjoying the snack size leftover Halloween candy a bit too much, but I’m not going to beat myself over it … yet. I am telling myself to be kind and patient with my AF journey. Working on my mindset.
Hubbie is helping me tons. We haven’t had ice-cream in the house for years as he has no control over it. He bought a small tub for me, and is steering clear. It is helping him understand my cravings and my inability to stop drinking once started 
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Thank you so much Adrienne. I definitely don’t think of myself as strong. I feel like I have so much work to do on myself. So many years wasted hiding from stuff instead of facing it. Time to grow up emotionally.
@C_8 I was going to give myself 90 days to not worry about my diet and the food I’m stuffing in my face. I just don’t know if my body can handle another 30 days of this gluttony. 
Especially with the holidays coming up. Just going to take it one day at a time like I am with the alcohol. So glad you have your hubby’s support. Mine has been supportive too but I think he’s starting to get concerned with the amount of sweets and cakes I’ve been eating. I’ll get through it. Don’t really have much of a choice not to.
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It’s funny, I was going to mention 90 days too … but I am also conscious of how people struggle around milestones. Thinking too much about stuff I shouldn’t be worrying about as usual!
I was already overweight (by about 40 lbs 
) … and hubbie is even more so. So more goals in my future. I also want to stop my nicotine gum habit, but am focusing on alcohol first, as I figure that was killing my soul. One day at a time. 
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One day at a time, one addiction at a time! I was 30lbs overweight when I stopped drinking. I’ve gained another 10lbs in 60 days. It’s really really bothering me. My husband needs to lose about 30 as well. But every time I resolve not to eat crap, I justify it by saying it’s better than drinking an entire bottle of wine like I used to. But I really need to quit eating my feelings. That’s not much healthier than drinking them. We can support each other here though! I’m thankful for you. Nice to know I’m not alone.
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Hey there 
lots of swirling feelings/thoughts/emotions going today. Lots of anxiety for some reason. Tightness in my chest won’t go away. I get to leave work early today so that’s good. But I’m not sure how to spend my free time. I have a list of things I COULD do but nothing I WANT to do. Feeling kind of blah. I’ll be ok. You doing ok over there? Any plans for the evening?
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Love it!! I need one.
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My lame excuse for not walking the dog? It’s cold. I can probably talk myself into it before I leave work. I know it helps me. And it helps him too. Sorry your stomach is off. To me those are some of the worst because it’s usually hard to figure out what caused it and how to make it feel better. Hope it doesn’t last too long.
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Happy Saturday to you!
Good morning sunshiners 
Hope you are better @crystalclear???
Wishing you all a good sober Saturday. 
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Good evening sir dot
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Yay, party!
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20 Days. Each one with highs and lows, but no drink. Ran about 10km this morning with cold rain bouncing off my head and I loved it. The rivers are bursting. I got to see an arrow of birds high above me while 2 big friendly farm dogs bounded out to see some bollox jogging through a puddle. I might feel down again later… but it will pass, and I’ll get to plough through water again tomorrow or whenever.
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Well done on your run that’s impressive, I love walking miles but not running and it’s fair weather vinyl I’m afraid. But I know it definitely lifts the mood 
My kinda party Fran
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