Okay, so here goes. My name is Krystal and I’m turning 27 this coming week. I have two beautiful children and a loving husband. Sounds awesome right? Here’s the kicker…I struggle with alcohol. Before I met my husband I never drank. We have been together for 4 years now and I’ve noticed my drinking went from one drink a night to now going until I pass out. It’s not ok. I’m upset with myself and it’s not helping my depression or anxiety. I have the issue where once I start it doesn’t stop until I’m asleep. My husband drinks but is able to go to bed early. I think my biggest problem is boredom. I’m a stay at home mom with hardly any friends and my family is my only focus for anything. I’ve recently taken up crochet because I’ve always been one that required having a hobby. I’m hoping that I can get back to the old me that was an amazing mom and wife that didn’t require altering her brain due to boredom.
@Krystalbetts Welcome to the forum! There are some really great people on here. You and I are a lot alike! I’m a stay at home puppy mom (my 12 yr old lives in another state), I drink during the day because of boredom as well, well I did … I’m on day 4! When my girl is with us I limit my drinks to a minimum, I’m scared to death there would be an emergency and I wouldn’t be able to take care of her. I signed up to learn how to knit, something I’ve always wanted to learn how to do. I never drank heavily until I met my husband and retired. My husband still drinks, but is helping me by not doing it in front of me, he’ll go out to the garage or wait till I go to bed. Does your husband know you want to quit? Is he going to join you in this journey? I think what you need is a new hobby (I’m sure that you’ll hear that a lot). Are your kids school age? Maybe you can volunteer or join a gym while they are at school. If you have any questions, we are here for you not only in answers but also in support. Stay strong 
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Thank you for the warm welcome! My daughter is 5 and my son will be 1 in two weeks. My husband and knows that I want to quit but he refuses to join me on it since he says that it’s his thing to do. I never drink during the day because like you, I get scared of a possible emergency. I always wait until the kids are in bed, but then I end up staying up until 3 and I feel my kids deserve a mom who is there and can wake up and be functional and not hung over. I feel like before drinking I was a creative human being and the drinking has stopped that and has stopped me from doing something more productive. I can’t work due to an immune deficiency, but I am starting to get back into my hobbies, like crocheting and jewelry making. I’ve mapped out my pattern and have realized that night time is the worst time that I crave a drink. Both of my parents are alcoholics and have been recovering for years and I never thought I would follow that path and since I see myself slipping away, I know I have to be strong and do something about it. I’m glad I found this app and group because I’ve already read tons of posts that I can relate to.