I can relate to that kind of honesty with yourself, I would think that if I was drinking, then I should disconnect from all things sober.
When I did finally get sober, in hindsight I can identify three major components.
- Motivation like I had never experienced before. I had been arrested and as part of my conditions of release before trial, I had to give a breath sample during strictly enforced hours at the local police station every morning. If I drank, I would be locked up for 3-6 months. I still had a job and a family to lose at that time, so I was scared witless.
- I did not drink from rising in the morning until going to bed at night. I used Antabuse to help me with that.
- Started to build my sobriety immediately, first with weekly individual counseling sessions, followed by a return to AA after about 3 weeks.
Here’s a great discussion of practical experience to stay dry and get sober,
I wish you blessings on your house as you begin your journey.