I’ve been trying to get sober a while now, at my height I was a bottle of wine a night, every night, alone. Yeah, not ideal. I must have stunk of booze at work, it was literally my hobby. If I have alcohol in the house, I drink it, if I wake up and there’s alcohol left, I’ll drink it right then… Long story short, this is only going on one direction, and it’s not like I’m going to wake up one day unaddicted.
So I decided to kick it, over a year ago now, but it’s always the month sober, it’s like I get in so far and then just forget all the reasoning, or think an exception will be ok or I’m just bored… My head starts nagging for a drink again. It sucks.
It’s not like I drink one and bam I’m back in the deep end, it’s a slow slow creep, like I’ll accept a cocktail at my sister’s for Xmas, then, oh go on then, a drink at New year or a beer with a friend… Slowly but then I’ll find myself drinking wine on a week night again for no reason. It’s crap.
How do I avoid that one month Meh.
And do you ever truly truly reach the stage where you’re not interested in it at all and never think about it? How long did that take for you???