I started drinking when I was twelve. Ive had alcohol poisoning more than once, but I’ve only been to the hospital once, I was thirteen. I’ve consumed more booze than I care to remember and ruined more relationships. I’ve pushed away anyone who got closed to me, ruined my marriage and now I live alone. I see my kids often but not as much as Id like and feel disgusted knowing theyve seen me drunk. Recently I was drinking so much Id black out for the weekend. Start friday and wake up monday, feeling as empty as when I started. Ive done and said unspeakable things that may haunt me for the rest of my life. Im trying to change, fifteen years of drinking. Ive been a drunk more than half my life. I feel like Im having a crisis where I have no clue who sober me actually is. I never learned, just turned to the bottle to escape whatever tribulation I was going thru at the moment. I have ten days almost eleven as I write this. I found this app, and the forum has helped me more than I can say. Ive read things that sound like I could have wrote them, found comfort in kindred spirits. That’s my story, so here’s wishing anyone reading this good luck. You’re stronger than you know if only you would choose to be.
Thank you for sharing your story
Yes, please share and reach out more often if you can. We all support each other in this journey of recovery.
You know who you are, you just wrote about it- you’re discovering yourself!
That’s a beautiful thing. And what’s better, while discovering, you can solidify who you want to be. With the consistency of sobriety your new personality will shine.
You’re a fucking peacock, strut those feathers 
I plan on being a part of this community, and I do rather enjoy the peacock analogy.
@Success oh man…I want to be a peacock…@Naturehippy 's unicorn is already taken…lol
You are a peacock in my book 
Hahahahaha!!! Yay! Your a peacock! I love it!!! 
️:yellow_heart:
I’m a peacock!!! 
: Thank you!
@Melrm, I’m waiting for some peacock memes from you!
I know right?
Your comment made my day!
Hahah oh gosh so much happiness right now!
Thanks for sharing. …my thoughts go to you while your on this path…i found everyone here very supportive and happy in knowing we are not alone…stay strong
This comment made my day! So the circle continues to revolve 