Only on day two, but already I’ve sat and thought about my monthly pattern over the last 10 years.
10 day’s per month I would drink BIG. From those 10 days I’d need another 10 days just to recover.
Out of those 10 days of drinking, at least 2 of them would end up in Carnage and others would get hurt.
So I guess that I have a choice now! To carry on with my pattern or have 30, beautiful, productive day’s a month that I can spread love and joy to the people that are still close to me.
It’s not easy to brake the circle ( in my case ).I think everyone that is alcoholic try to do this, because life with alcohol is really dramatic: for us and for the people around us.
But … it is possible. The fact that this is possible is for me a big hope! Personally I must move all the energy I used to spent into alcohol into this new life. In my case it means reading here , go to AA meetings ( or online meeting too ) , reading books about how to manage this new life ( how to relax , meditation, how to do everything without alcohol). Here I’m finding a lot of people with tons of experience, and a lot of very interesting stories. This is a good starting point , I think!
All the best for your decision, you can do this and brake this shitty circle ! All the best , be strong
Thanks. Since I wrote and posted the thread, I’ve ran a bath, tidied up my mess from two nights ago, and I’m genuinely excited regarding the thought of having 30+ day’s per month that are going to be positive. They say that life goes by quick (no wonder if we can’t remember it).
Hi Stephen 🙋
Welcome here, read around there is a lot of exelent info to find! Use the above and type in the subject you wanna read aboud.
Learning about your addiction is a big tool in beating it!
Try to change something! If you keep doing the same, nothing change (but that you already found out🤗)
Make a plan! If you type in sober plan above in that surch bar you find what I mean.
Yes it is Insane , to keep doing the same thing and expecting a different outcome ? maybe try a meeting they might help you change your habits wish you well
Thank you Buts. I had a huge gambling problem over 25 years ago. I was staying in London at the time and tapped into GA in s big way. I went to 5 meetings per week, ended up getting a job from my sponsor. I haven’t gambled since, not even the lottery. Two weeks ago I was telling people that I didn’t have a problem, I guess the other night and a conversation with my 11 year old the night before, has brought everything to the edge, I’m not going over that edge. I’ll be on here everyday. Thank God that I found you guys. Thank you again.
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