Yeah definitely not planning on another 1.5y relapse any time soon.
Thank you for your kind words.
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Day 28
I was just having a think about my brother and his current situation.
He travels with a fair where he sells all sorts but mainly smoking utensils of the green kind.
For years now hes been on and off in active addiction although he’ll never admit that. I had to ask if he was clean from meth currently as hes trying to find somewhere to park up for winter. He said no but not actively looking for it for now.
I was going to ask a friend of mine with a bit of land if they could help out but that no means a no from me because it comes with a lack of trust at that point. Its hard.
I know he’ll likely end up in a trailer park or such and things will be accessible again. I hope he continues to look after himself,partner and dogs.
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Awesome!
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Congrats on 30 days! Amazing work!
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now and then.
Years ago I had my labret punched out and 6mm plug put in….why because body mod and my endless need you be hapoy with my image.
well couple of weeks ago i decided to re stretch it.
Nearly there 2 more millimeters to go.
Anywho
Today is day 31, my journey is definitely mine.
Ive been here before, the way I chose to pursue sobriety might not be the same way you chose to each their own. The 2 years I had up i found that easy. This time there’s more to it. I have the tools from NA in my toolbox which get used.
I always know that if times get tough I can hit a meeting and find a seat.
If you are set on how do things and off me advice I pass on please don’t be offended.
I know I can get this done
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Day 38! Thoughts - its a long one.
So the director of the documentary im in/part of came past today, finalized everything for my filming out my final shots.
Quick catch up. ALTER EGO. the doco. Began as a book im in that too yet dont own a copy. It was a photography project of who you are at work and who you are in life. Back then I was a boucer/doorman. My me photograph was very rock/metal imaged. A director picked it up to make a doco and ended up picking me due to my biracial background and interests in body suspension, yes the one with the hooks.
Now we are caught up.
I think from first meeting to now its been about 10-15 years of my life thats been on and off documented. Urgh. There are parts in there when ive been deep in addiction even drinking on film. Im not looking forward to seeing any part of that im hoping the editor cuts them. Im sure what comes out will be great. I have a trailer but im not allowed to share it.
So these final shots will be at home on my family land. Its been 3 years since ive been home. I cannot wait to share some photos. I cannot wait to ground myself again and pay my respects to family that has passed.
This is the place I started my last sober journey. I will say thank you once again to my uncle for the gift I was givin that day and again for guiding me back to the light.
If you’ve made it this far through my ramblings pat yourself on the back. And if you do come past here please feel free to tap in on the thread.
Even if you need a space to vent. Maybe I’ll have some southern hemisphere advice for you. Maybe a cheeky kiwi ism.
Much love
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