This time feels different - and that's good

I am a serial relapser with the longest I’ve gone in the past without a drink a very difficult 5 weeks. But this time on the wagon feels completely different.
Instead of feeling like I’m missing out by not drinking, I feel empowered and free from a curse. I sometimes let my mindset slip back to thinking “oh I’m so hard done by not being able to drink normally” but as soon as I catch myself doing it I force myself to remember that by choosing not to poison myself daily, I’ve escaped the prison alcohol set for me and that is a great thing!
I guess what I’m trying to say is this time I am focused on positives of quitting rather than the negatives of what I can’t have and it is really helping, so wanted to share.