Hey, so after 5 years, I have finally decided that I do not want to consume marijuana anymore. YES THE WHOLE WORLD IS LEGALISING MARIJUANA! However, after all the research I have done on the effects of thc on the human brain and after all the hell I put myself through, all the bad decisions I have made, all my loved ones I’ve gone on hurting without realising; all because IT WAS ALL ABOUT ME. It kept being all about me, what I went through, how nobody understood me, how everything had to revolve around what I thought, how I felt and what I did and how it affected me.
This thing has detrimentally affected my life, my education, my decisions, my relationships without my realising. Yeah maybe it is easy for me to just blame marijuana, and not myself but I feel different when I’m off it; not only that, I am told that I AM different when I’m sober. Don’t even get me started on my emotions and how rash I can be when I don’t get my afternoon Js or post gym seshs.
7 days sober, I have never felt better
I just want someone, anyone to tell me that I’m not crazy. That all of this makes sense. That it is not all in my head.