# Time for a new Crazy\_Dutchie **URL:** https://talkingsober.com/t/time-for-a-new-crazy-dutchie/98388 **Category:** Life in Recovery **Created:** [September 7, 2020, 7:37am UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/time-for-a-new-crazy-dutchie/98388 "2020-09-07T07:37:45Z") **Posts on this page:** 1 **Showing post:** 47
### Author: ![anon89207786](https://talkingsober.com/letter_avatar_proxy/v4/letter/a/d2c977/32.png) [@anon89207786](https://talkingsober.com/u/anon89207786) #### Post date: [September 24, 2020, 2:19pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/time-for-a-new-crazy-dutchie/98388/47 "2020-09-24T14:19:36Z")
> [@Jennajen](#): > > Is it necessary for you to have a counter for self-improvements? Not really, but I find it very interesting to log things as a kind of research. And as something to look back on when I’m older. > [@Jennajen](#): > > Just focus on the most important things today - eating food, sleeping, doing homework, sharing with people (family, friends, us) in a way that suits you. That’s my main priority. I use this thread as accountability for doing the most important things. And also as motivation so that I can see the improvement I’ve made, even if it’s on the most basic things. And I use it to maintain focus on doing my homework. > [@Jennajen](#): > > You are putting so much pressure on yourself > [@Apes2020](#): > > Your putting too much pressure on your self with things that arnt anything you need to prove to your self That’s true. I’m scared that if I don’t I’ll lose myself again as I have been living on the edge for almost 2 months now and it’s really impacting my mental health. I really want to pull myself away from that edge and go back to the way I was living the first few months after rehab. My life was so much better and I know I can get back to that life, but I can’t do it in a couple of days. It took me 10 weeks of intense therapy and group sessions to get there. I can’t do that in a few days and I can’t get that in my head. Just like I forget that slumps are okay and part of the journey. What I’m in now isn’t a slump though. Being hard on myself is one of the things I want to improve in. This thread has also already helped me a lot with that. > [@Jennajen](#): > > these aren’t things you have to “prove” to yourself, you should do them because they make you feel good, not because you are trying to please everyone. At first, I wanted to prove myself a lot of things to feed my ego and not to disappoint others. Lately, my mindset has been shifting in a way that I now also want to do it because it makes me happy and made me happy before. > [@Apes2020](#): > > Take care of the important things first , your a smart human, you know what’s important and what can wait… Thank you. The knowledge is there, I know what has priority and what doesn’t but I constantly find myself doing things that don’t have priority… > [@Maria](#): > > no goals, no pressure, just fun! I don’t think I’ll be able to control the amount of fun. I’m becoming that age where you can’t succeed with only fun 😕 > [@Maria](#): > > my gut says maybe time to get the body moving. Absolutely. I’m going for a run ASAP, which will probably be Saturday due to work and school. > [@Maria](#): > > Before the rain comes your way Fuck. I have to cycle 15km to work in the middle of the rain front… Thank you all for caring about me, I may not show it very often, but I do really appreciate it 😃 --- _[View the full topic](https://talkingsober.com/t/time-for-a-new-crazy-dutchie/98388)._