Time to get clean no

Been thinking a good and long time about getting clean as humans and Americans we all have many addictions mine is weed and pornography and vaping and drinking and it may not seem bad because I’m not out of control but it’s not helping me make the best choices I’m doing good where I’m at in my life but I know I could be doing way better seems like when I’m smoking weed and fucking off im just never happy unless I’m drunk or high and it honestly scares me I am not in pain or hurting and It only makes my mental problems worse and all I can think about is my son that I’m letting down while I kill myself slowly I hate to put this info public but it’s what I’m going through tomorrow I’m giving all my pipes and my bong away and my vape and I’m deleting my social media and my history and I’m gonna start working on getting a part time job with my social security and work on my health and being a better father I see my son a lot but I feel like even though I’m there and I’m high I’m not really there my son has autism and we have a bond like no other but I just feel like he deserves better from me as his daddy and It seems like when I’m partying and shit I attract the worst type of people the ones who plot on what I got and hate on me behind my back here’s to a new life!

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