I haven’t relapsed yet, but holy smokes is it hitting me like a brick today. I take an annual golf trip in the spring with a pretty solid group of guys. Heavy drinking was involved last year and if you happen to enjoy golf, you know how beer and golf go hand in hand. Anyways, the group made a FB page with past photos and videos of the trips and I can’t help but feel overly nostalgic when thinking about those trips. I’m 128 days sober, but wow are those fun trips! No worries in the world and acting like a complete drinking idiot is allowable for 4 days…
Just the thought of this year’s trip makes me want to start drinking again. It’s such a mind tease this alcoholism! I’m hoping I’m able to put the negative impact of doing it all over again in my mind first and how disappointing it would be. Especially for making it this far…