Tomorrow: 1st day clean. 1st day back to work. Terrified

So I am going through the effects of a few days of bingeing on meth, and also a few pain pills, some Xanax here and there. Now I’m out, trying to stay out. And I go back to work tomorrow after taking weeks off for my “spine issues”.
How the f#&k am I going to get through tonight, and then get my ass to work, be on the phone for 8 hours straight talking to people about tech support…when I can hardly see straight.
Oh, it’s also a brand new team, supervisor, etc. So tomorrow is their introduction to me. And I’m going to sound like an idiot.
If I even go, that is…

Hey Amanda, How did it go?