So this morning, started early fully committed to staying sober off of alcohol that’s why I downloaded this app as a reminder to be stronger. Started work at 9, first thing I do, drop a ladder and scuffs a boat minor scratches on the back end, some guy looks over goes “wtf man” 
I swear, its either a test but these mishaps totally shoot down my confidence in wanting to work around bitchy people, but then I realize its also not just me and things happen. All last week on the ladders nothing happens, does anyone else feel like these mishaps follow them? Like a test to see how much do you want to stay sober after work today kind of thing? Or is it actually just me?
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I totally understand this ..so yes my answer is yes! Sometimes I just wanna shout will you all just get a bloody grip , you people are ruining my day 
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Hey, welcome! And congratulations on wanting something better for yourself!
My honest opinion is that we just feel things more for a while when we decide we’re going to stop using our self-soothing tool. It’s like when you learn a new word and then hear it everywhere. We feel shitty because we want to drink about it and our addiction wants to give us excuses.
But you can do this, 100%. Don’t let that voice tell you it’ll be different this time. It won’t. And you deserve better things. 
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Agree with other commenters - 100% relatable. It feels like when you choose to work on yourself something pops up to justify shifting back to bad habits.
Key word though I think, is ‘feels’ like. I predict the real deal is that your brain is quietly scanning for any and all excuse to lay back into an addiction, and those moments just hit harder for that reason.
Or perhaps we’re in some simulation and alien type beings are messing with us….
In any event, WE are the only ones who can affect change.
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For me, remembering shitty things/people are gonna be in my world regardless if I drink or not. Not drinking is the important thing, them… not that important at all.
Keep living you, friend.
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Thank you everyone for welcoming me and the comments to my first post, and letting me know im not the only one who notices 
you all are awesome!
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Welcome! Glad you found us!
Congratulations on your decision to live a sober life. It’s so much better.
Maybe you‘ll find this thread helpful:
Read around and join in if you like. I‘m looking forward to your posts!
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Thank you for that! Day at a time 
God bless you!
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Looking back, I seen that the same stuff was happening, but I was drinking so it didn’t affect me as much now being sober that little stuff gets to me. As well as people that might’ve been an asshole from day one and I didn’t care cause I was using, but now that I’m sober and not drinking I nitpick everything.
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Thank you for sharing that! I think people dont like seeing people succeeding and that the truth lol good on ya tho man, keep going!
I think “sh** happens” as life’s tests to see how we will do and what we will do based on lessons we’ve learned and experiences we’ve had. I try not to see it as a bad thing even if the cynical part of me tries to tell me it’s a bad thing and nothing good can come out of it or make me complain way too much.
Exactly, man. Sometimes, too, there are no lessons and it’s just a painful experience but the very acceptance of it and the resilience we develop from coming out of it counts.
I’m still dealing with the immediate urges to drink whenever I get overwhelmed with my emotions but I think I’m getting better at holding the reins, and I hope you continue to do it too.
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Yeah, I got pretty good now at going the work week without, its the last day of work and the sun out tho that gets me. Im going for it this time tho, plus I’ve noticed a bit of health issues arising more and diabetis runs on the dad side of the family kinda scary. Stay strong!
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