Day 20 sober. To be transparent, I wanted a drink last night. I prevailed. I wasn’t sad or going through anything. I actually have barely wanted to drink on the days I’m sad or feeling depressed. I just laser focus on what’s stressing me those days, and try to fix that. lol I’m not sure if that is a healthy alternative.
I realized it’s more so the really calm days, where I’m borderline bored. Where I think, “oh this would be great right now” something to do when there’s “nothing to do” (when I’m avoiding the 1,000 important tasks I should be finishing😂)
Putting more time into my art again has helped me a lot. When I get those tendencies I just work on something cool, when I create my mind is at ease. I don’t really think at all. It’s like elevator music in my brain.
Writing this, I’m realizing maybe I should start doing more work than just stopping cold turkey. I should start the 12 steps to dig deeper. New November goal unlocked? I actually have no idea what I’m doing, but I’m doing it. So, there’s that. And if it’ll help and is healthy, I’m interested!
Anyways, thanks for listening. Here are some digital art pieces I created for Halloween! (During my sobriety journey) I removed my signature to maintain privacy, just because this is personal and something I am doing alone. Other than the advice, encouragement, and help from all of you! Which I appreciate greatly.
Beautiful work. Addiction is sneaky. I definitely recommend putting effort into your recovery. Going to aa, getting a sponsor, and working the steps helped free me. If youre bored i recommend annie graces 30 day experiment. It teaches you about what alcohol does to your body and whats going on when youre craving. Its free online
just wanted to say cool art and that you could just try the 12 steps just to see if you feel better i’m sure you will i often hear others say they think everyone should go through the steps even people who aren’t alcoolics/addicts
Art has been good for me in my recovery. I enjoy many different mediums.
Investing my drinking savings into art supplies and tools to make art has been good for my recovery. Putting those tools to work helped me fill the time I used to spend drinking. It helps me feel good about myself.
Learning and practicing the principle behind the 12 steps has been good for my recovery.
Love the art! I would get a couple tattooed honestly. And there are many programs available to help. AA, Recovery Dharma, SMART, etc. If one doesn’t “click” or “feel right” try another. Also, there are many zoom meetings for all. I found it to be more helpful than I expected. I was “raw dogging” it for awhile before I realized I also had to focus more on recovery and less on avoiding the issue (not actively doing anything besides staying sober). 3 weeks down…. many more to come
Beautiful artwork! I really like the skull cherries! Im glad u have something that distraccts u and keeps u busy! Also, congratulations on 20 days sober
I think ur right tho, in the sense that we need to do MORE for our recovery. Being in recovery is more than just quitting the substance. Its an overhaul of our lives Started the 12 steps is a great idea tho! Do u have a sponsor to take u thru the book/steps? If u dont, it would be a good idea to get a sponsor from a meeting and then begin the steps The steps have been wonderful for my recovery and Im sure that you would find benefit from it too.
I also like to do a recovery focused morning routine as well. It sets the day up in the right direction, reduces cravings, and keeps me busy. Things like reading daily reflections, journalling, prayer, meditation, meetings, exercise, those sorts of things. It helps reduce boredom too
Started the 12 steps is a great idea tho! Do u have a sponsor to take u thru the book/steps? If u dont, it would be a good idea to get a sponsor from a meeting and then begin the steps